That sounds like a good idea. But my goodness that's going to be a long list. I guess it's not necessarily how long the list is for me it's the fact that I don't want to have to relive the memories
Are you working the steps with a sponsor in aa? The step work is designed to help us be free from our pasts.
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I wonder if there's a way to acknowledge that you've lived the pain enough, and now you just want to forgive, and walk away from that pain without going back?
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Unfortunately no I haven't started working the steps yet. I haven't even found a sponsor yet. I am only a week sober this time so I haven't really gotten the time to find one. I have been to four meetings out of the last 8 days. I'm not really that social of a person so it's a little hard but I do understand that a sponsor will help out a lot
I did too until I asked my higher power Jesus to remove it and he did ask him just try it
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Sarah I had this problem in my first year and To be honest There still remains echoes of resentment in my heart that will probably be there for the rest of my life. I found that keeping the focus on myself and working my recovery program, 12 steps, it made it manageable. Getting therapy can also help. Forgiveness has been a process for me but it no longer rules my thoughts or emotions. Hoping the same for you.
I found stepwork helped me in this process.
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Oh i hear ya on that! It takes a bit to get comfortable going to meetings. It was something i made myself do and iām glad i did.
I hear that.
Forgiveness is a hard one. I struggled with it for many, many years. It takes time, but forgiveness is possible. Hang in there. I'm rooting for you.
Yes! It sure does.
WE didnāt get like we did overnight. Similarly recovery takes T I M E. Things I must earn.
Self hatred is. Well u know .we are not our past. There is always a way no matter what.anything is possible asslong as u reach out before u pick up use your past as fuel to help the next brother or sister it's how we truly understand
Its a process my friendā¦ right now just concentrate on getting to meetings.. 90meetings/90days at a minimumā¦ donāt drink or use between meetings. Iāve been doing 2 or 3 a day for almost 90 days now.. raise your hand and share. Introduce yourself at least every day for first 30.. just do this much and i swear on my life in 90 days you will report back to me (if you wish) a complete change you cant even wrap your head around
Right now.