Have a huge project to do today and i always did huge projects with drugs. I am breaking it down into smaller parts but it doesnt take away knowing how much of summer is left and needing it done before the end of summer... The last few days i have been avoiding the project because it makes me want to use, but i cant avoid it forever theres so many steps and step one is cleaning the room which is the hardest thing for me as my main reason for getting addicted to drugs was trying to keep a clean house with 3 kids under 10. Cleaning is a huge trigger that i normally relapse everytime idk what to do tbh. I feel like ik i will relapse doing this step
