Haven't been to this app for a while ...just picked up my 6 month chip...working a lot...paying bills...enjoying my new sober life! My bf had to move out because he's not sober and I'm in drug court. He is struggling w his health and unable to work. I feel bad because he had to move out but that was HIS choice not to get sober. Called me the other night...he was on a bridge and going to jump...he didn't of course but...I don't understand why he feels the need to keep making me feel guilty for his choices...I feel bad enough the way it is. I lost my son to suicide 9 yrs ago...it brings back emotions that tear me up...any advice or thoughts would be much appreciated...am I a horrible person for feeling like I don't want to deal w his bs anymore???
Proud of you I have a lot of years in for alcohol 37 to be exact and I went out after 2 years clean from all the drugs then 4 months ago I got slack on my Christian based sobriety and I consciously made a decision that I wanted to try crack again I had the bug get me like the devil was overpowering my reasoning and I have been 4 months out there think about getting back to my clean sobriety and it’s a strong addictive drug that pulls you right back but I know I can do it with my God powering my will power I hate it every day is all about the drug so be careful and don’t give in ever keep going forever and remember it was Gid that gave you the strength and helped you through it all and you are selected to pass the message on !!!
GOD is my strength and he completely took away the urge to want to use...seriously...I have no room for that in my life anymore. Im 56 yrs old and don't know how much time I have left on this earth but I do know one thing...im not spending the rest of what I got left getting high. I've disappointed my family long enough and Im not that person anymore...thanks to GOD! And meetings I have hope and am grateful to wake up sober...a job to go to...and I GET to pay bills! I just feel guilty about my ex...he refuses GOD and won't even try to help himself...im just over it