Having a hard day. I’ve quite 4 times my longest sober is 9 months and I made it 4 months this time before I relapsed. I’ve never tried aa/na so that’s different this time I always thought I can do it. I’ve realized I can’t alone and my 24 year marriage gone kids won’t speak to me so worst ever. I’m not trying to loose 5 more years this time though. How do you deal with the guilt you feel? I already lied to my family about relapse. So this is where the wrong road starts.
4 Likes
Those days happen. Sorry for all you’ve gone through. You can do it. You’ve done a good job getting back up every time. It is a tough journey but we are here for each other. Reach out for an ear when needed.
1 Like
Hey I’m sorry you are struggling. Relapses happen but they don’t define us. We all have guilt and have done things that we regret. Don’t let that shame be YOU. There’s a song by mother mother called it’s alright. The lyrics go
“ had a night, I had a day
I did one million stupid things
I said one billion foolish things
I'm not okay
I got a baseball bat beside my bed
To fight off what inside my head
To fight off what's behind my meds
I'm lonely, lost in pain
It's alright, it's okay,
You're not a monster, just a human
And you made a few mistakes
It's alright,
You're not gruesome, just human
And you made a few mistakes
It's alright “
Focus on you right now and healing with your family / kids may come someday but rn make You the priority
It’s your life ur fighting for. 
1 Like