Having a hard time turning things over to God 
I always feel like God is against me and has taken away the things I love most like my kids my house my job my marriage... I lost everything. How can I learn to trust God again
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Hi Nikki! I’m not in the exact same position as you, but I know how you feel. I’ve (finally) accepted that the marriage I was in was not working for me. I needed time on my own to figure things out for myself. I wasn’t going to be able to do that in the marriage I was in (with young kids, busy job, etc etc).
In the last 3 years I’ve gotten divorced, left a job of 19 years, sold my marital house and uprooted my kids to a new house. But…..I’m doing my best to focus on positives that are ahead. I have nowhere to go but up 
It’s taken me a while, but I’m thankful for the free time I now have to focus on myself and what makes me happy. Best of luck!
You are Gods child and he loves you always. I understand the feelings you are having right now, I went through the same ones and was mad at God for 5 years after my divorce. Then I started thinking how I am a father and that I would never do that to my children and my part that I could control in the situations that were hurting me. You are a blessed, sweet soul and I believe you can get through these hard times. God has not forsaken you.
Sometimes trusting Him starts small, like just saying, “I don’t get it, but I’m here.” Especially when there’s loss and heartache, but I don’t think God would take anything. But He can repair everything. Stay strong friend. This journey is worth it
@nikki365414 Stop playing the victim.
God didn't take anything from you. You traded it all in for drugs and/or alcohol or both.
Do a thorough 3rd step. Once completed you'll find out that God is for you not against you.
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This is always what gets me. When I realize God didnt do this to me that I did this to me.
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Thanks everyone I appreciate the advice
Good morning, Nikki😄!
Just for a few minutes, take some time to breathe in and breathe out. Make your thumb stand up, hold it to your nose and envision breathing, in the fragrance of a flower then have your index finger by your mouth and blow out an imaginary candle. Today you will be gentle with yourself, you will be kind to yourself. Look up a few positive affirmations to say to reset centering with yourself. Say a small prayer to your higher power and understand that no one is perfect. We all make mistakes and the ugly scars that our active addiction of alcoholism leaves behind are going to always be there. But they don’t represent who you are in the present. Yesterday has gone forever. Our minds go back and we visit the memories, but we cannot live there. Give yourself a big squeeze me hug welcome to Loosid and you are around people who understand you …here you are among family. 
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