Having a rough day. My addiction has done its damage

Recovery
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Having a rough day. My addiction has done its damage and the unknown scares the heck out of me. But I’m still here today, and that’s a blessing. Just had to put it out there somewhere besides inside my own mind. We all know that can be a dangerous place to harbor emotions and the demons that haunt us.

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#2

Hi

#3

Keep it going. All the answers will come soon when you start feeling so much better.

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#4

I’m really proud of you for putting it outside of your head instead of letting it echo in there. That alone is strength. :purple_heart:

The unknown is scary… but so was getting sober, and you did that. You don’t have to solve the future today. Just stay here. Just stay sober today.

Your mind can be loud, but it’s not always telling the truth. And the fact that you’re still here, still choosing to fight, says more about you than your addiction ever could. :butterfly:

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#5

Thank you.

#6

Your words are appreciated! I’m so grateful for my sober supports.

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#7

CC thanks for the reminder to get out of my crazy head.

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#8

Great words of encouragement.

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#9

I hear you on this, and I want to share something that might help.
The fear of not knowing… I battled with that hard. Doctor appointments, bloodwork, anything health-related, I’d spiral. This was still happening 6 months ago, and I’m 7 years sober.
Here’s what I finally figured out: it wasn’t really the fear of what might be wrong. It was the fear of not having control.
When we get sober, we’re suddenly aware of everything. Alert to everything. We know what drinking or using might have done to our bodies, and we work ourselves up so much that sometimes there’s nothing even wrong.
What helped me was letting go of what I couldn’t control. I started using somatic therapy, I put my hand on my heart until I felt the warmth, and I told myself: You are okay. You have been through much worse. And if there is something, you will get through it like you’ve done everything else so far.
I’m not saying that’s exactly what you’re dealing with, but I wanted you to know you’re not alone feeling this
That’s how recovery works. One person shares, it triggers a memory in someone else, and we get to say “hey, I’ve been there too.” And in that moment, you know you’re not carrying it alone. Here for you

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#10

Your words are greatly appreciated and exactly what I needed to be reminded of. Thank you.