I’m an emotional wreck. I am dealing with a chronic pain flare up and I’m honestly at my wits end. All I want to do is be productive and enjoy this beautiful weather but my body won’t let me. I’m tired of feeling tired and in pain with no answers from doctors. It’s a struggle to just get through the day lately and take care of all my responsibilities. When the flare ups get bad, I am tempted to drink again. But just for today I will not give in.
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Great job sharing your struggle CJ, it always helps me when I share. Life has a lot of obstacles that we must overcome sober or drunk but you know sober is the right way to deal with them. 
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CJ way to go. Don’t give in to the fake solution.
I read your post and can totally identify.
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My goodness CJ, how I ever relate. I've been struggling the latter half of this week with the same issues. I've been beating myself up over not going to meetings, SHOWERING, etc. I'm currently stressed to the effing max about figuring out what I need to do to keep my Medicaid so that my chronic illnesses and meds can be sorted out without me missing them again.
Pain sometimes runs my life. My son has substances here and the only thing that stops me is me. My kids don't have an issue with me using, but I do.
Hang in there. If you want to cry with me when you or both of us are in pain, I'm down for it. I know that being able to vent about the pain and disabling effects of it can sometimes help a whole lot. It's like a release value for me sometimes.
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