After rehab and nearly 6 months of sobriety i had one of many “using” dreams which this particular one gave me a strong craving to use and it made me relapse. I cant belive that i gave in. I feel like since the devil cant get me anymore to use while awake he has been trying to attack me in my dreams. This came out of left field and definitely was unexpected. Words of encouragement is needed. I dont feel defeated but i feel like this is just a round in a game that i lost.
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Dee,
First forgive yourself
It was the unforgiveness towards myself that kept me out for nine years after a few years of clean time.
When I made it back to the rooms, and came back boots on the ground. Got me a sponsor, work those steps as if my life depended on, because it did.
Most importantly I got Honest, with myself,The Creator and a loving sponsor. Hung out with only the Winners and no longer when around tp wet places and familiar faces. I use to have those dreams and when I woke I knew I had to get busy working on my recovery harder that day
I encourage you to make a meeting today and get honest. I realized I needed that research again however this time I wasn't playing with my life. I have been through miscarriage, divorce becoming a single parent in recovery and through all of that I will be celebrating 11 years.
I have had those dreams over the years difference now is I know it was only a dream so I wake up in Gratitude because that use to be a huge trigger for me when I was still out there
You never have to use again!!!
It will get better just keep coming back
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Thank you so much for those words. I still feel pretty strong but just tripping out on how I relapsed but you’re right I don’t have to use. It’s time to get back in the ring!
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Psalm 23, 66
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I feel this. I'm 90 days, and I've had dreams. VIVID dreams. All involving alcohol. Sometimes with my kids and my hubby. Sometimes involving my truck. I still remember them. It felt like they really happened. Injuries in the dreams and all. They made me want to go back to the bar, so I could suppress them. Deep down I knew that wasn't the answer. So I thought about them. Once in a while. Rode through them. Using them to stay on the right track. I'm glad I did. When you wake up, remind yourself, it's only a dream. I hope something out of this helped you. I wish you the best. Stay strong.
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Take a breath. Forgive yourself. Flush the shame. Stand back up. This can still be your turning point.
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Thank you so much
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Thank you