Hello… I am new here. I had 9 1/2 years of sobriety. I started smoking cannabis occasionally a couple of months ago and in no time at all I was back in the throes of addition. I am struggling right now. I got sober in AA but haven’t been for a while. Typical story I guess. Thank you for reading 
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I understand how you feel man. I had some time and recently relapsed 33 days ago. I went to a detox and got back into meetings. It really has helped. If you need some numbers of other addicts for support just message me. Have a good day man
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I hear ya.. I was just short of 9 years and relapsed. I was really happy sober. I stopped making sobriety my #1 priority. Took me 8 years to come back…. A dui that actually saved me because I was on a suicide mission. It got me back to AA. Glad I got that gift of desperation again. It sucks to start over again, but I’m glad I have!! Best to you!
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Welcome home brother. I too got sober in the rooms of AA, and then slowly drifted away from a program of recovery over the years. I actually went about 27 years without a drink or a drug before I started smoking weed and drinking again. Unfortunately, without a recovery program, I turned to other “escape routes” as I became irritable, restless, and discontent. It all led me back to “needing” to drink and get high. My life imploded, and I got myself back into A.A. on 7/23/21. It feels so good to be back home with my peeps where I belong. This relapse has taught me so much about what I’m powerlessness over, and what I do have power over. Get back in the rooms as quickly as you can. Drop the shame! We understand
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Don't beat yourself up. Kick yourself in the a-ss if you want to. You've done it before you will do it again. It is quite as simple as that. Prayers always 
I’m praying you make it back.
Joshua thank you man! Your words mean a great deal. I appreciate you being there.
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I totally feel this. Thank you for taking the time to share.
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Congrats man and thank you! I really appreciate you.
I have been kicking my own a** for a minute because of this. But it’s time to stop the self pity and get back to life
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Thank you Craig
Your story is a testimony to those who think that cannabis is safe!
I had almost 9 years of sobriety. I relapsed in 2011. It cost me 3 years of oblivion. Come July I'll have 9 years all over again.
You made the mistake and hopefully you have learned the hard way. All you can do now is own it and move forward one day at a time. it's not the end of the world.
You survived so far and you're not locked up somewhere.
Today is the 1st day of the rest of your life. What you do with it is up to you.
Oh and you're not the 1st person who has relapsed and you won't be the last. Down the road this will be a big part of your story. It's called believing the big lie; That this time, everything will be OK. But it wasn't, was it?
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Thank you Dave…. It certainly was not okay. I haven’t felt this way at in a very long time.
Hello KG: Welcome back. We're glad that you're here. While countless alcoholics and addicts have recovered in AA, as an addict I have found more identification in Narcotics Anonymous. Maybe try some different things? I have a sponsor , sponsees and work the Steps, Traditions and program of NA. We celebrated 5 years clean and sober back in October. Thank-you.
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I’ve done the same thing dude. over and over and over. I’ll get clean and then think weed is okay and then i’m right back to taking molly every weekend and xans every night and smoking blues until i pass out. I have learned weed is not safe. it still alters you and for me it makes me crave that feeling. I want more and weed won’t give it to you. You smoke so much it doesn’t do anything so then you turn to other things. It’s insanity. It’s the same things every time. Start smoking weed and start the loop all over again. I’ve relapsed so many times by smoking some weed first and every time I go back the time the bender is gets shorter and shorter until you’ll take that hit and then OD and die.
Even when you’ve been away for months you will pick up and it’s like you were never sober and your back to the bottom feeling sick and tired ALL the time. I understand this insanity and it’s a loosing game. No matter what your strategy is or how you change it YOU WILL LOOSE. EVERY. TIME. YOU CAN NOT OUT RUN YOUR ADDICTION. it will result in death which i’ve seen to many times.
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Welcome. I’m glad you found this group. I pray you get back on track and get connected with AA again. It’s saved my life!
So have I Two