Hello. I’m new here. Just celebrated one year without alcohol on May 30. I am proud of my accomplishment but I have hit a wall and have started craving alcohol again. Mostly I think I just feel lonely and left out even though I know I don’t want to drink…so I came here.
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Congratulations. Going to meetings?
Melanie, there is a difference between craving and a mental obsession. As an alcoholic I am both physically and mentally different in that once I put alcohol into my system, then my body CRAVES more...It demands more and more until I am stopped by and outside force (passing out, cops, being knocked out, etc). I have also learned that I have a mental obsession to drink, and that when I'm not drinking I am thinking about it. I'm going to just guess here that you've tried to do this on your own. I would highly recommend going to AA, getting a sponsor, a home group, and a service position within that home group. AA is a spiritual, not religious program which requires me to believe in and then becoming willing to rely on a power greater than myself. Willpower alone is great, but this disease is cunning, baffling, and powerful.
21 months into my recovery, I walk a free man. I no longer obsess over the drink. I couldn't even walk into a drug store without their beer display "glowing" calling my name! I couldn't even sit at my nephew's birthday party without watching what and how many everyone was drinking around me. The big book of AA states that I am beyond human aid. That no power could have relieved my alcoholism, but God could and would if he were sought.
Praying that you get to a meeting, and then don't leave until that miracle happens!!
Thank you for your reply. I will consider it.
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