Hello. I'll tell you what life throws you curves when you least expect them. This is difficult for me to express. I'm one of those 65-year-old non-dating lady with two beautiful cats. My poor Isabel 
, 2 weeks ago she started throwing up never had done that before. Immediately brought her to the vets but of course you have to pay the bill before you leave; I hate money with a passion. I didn't have enough for x-rays to see what was wrong,. I had to wait a week hoping every day she still was alive; period. I quilt i hand sew. I would thread my needles and put them high on the kitchen wall far away from or so I thought a cat who had to put everything in her mouth thought it was cute at first. She swallowed one of my needles 
I finally got $1,200 up to finally have the poor girl x-rayed and I saw the needle in her tummy. The Vet told me it would only be about $3,500 to 4 grand for surgery and stay at an animal hospital. Or I could euthanize her. Talk about guilt I killed my poor cat of course not meaning to. She was suffering but they we're very nice and I lost it totally. The ultimate love is for them to not suffer anymore! I explained to him that before I came to the vets this time with cash that if she had to have surgery I would not be able to afford it. He said just bring her home for the night just say goodbye? Are you effing kidding me? I had only had her for 13 months (and enclosed is a picture. ) She was suffering so badly why would I be selfish and take her home? My higher power is and always will be our Lord Jesus Christ. I took a taxi home I don't have a car yet. Called my brother Jack and he said get a bottle of wine . You're in total shock Iaur. But i have been clean for 13 months from everything. Crack cocaine was my go for. Yes I was in the shock knowing did she jump up on the wall and grabbed a shiny needle and ate it. It's difficult for me to tell you the truth but you must I must personally take things out of the dark and put them into the light. I remembered I had $35 in my purse left over and the devil swooped in and said oh that would make you feel better, you need to feel guilty because you messed up. Just a 20 of crack would really help you feel better.!! Now this is how our God works. This is no fishtail as soon as I had that undeniable craving I got a loud knock on my door. There were two of my friends my neighbors holding a two month old kitten a tabby exactly like Isabel that needed a home. At first I said no way it's too soon I just had to leave her. But then the holy Spirit told me this is God's will he knows he knows everything I had to hit my knees and give my poor Isabel to God and that was no easy feat. I have never done that before and mind you. Well of course she has helped my calico Fiona and I giving her a home. She was feral and had diarrhea and two hollow legs to fill up. Trust me, I know that I am not being cold or inconsiderate we miss Isabel so so much. Named her Abbey smart & She's a love probably had to eat roadkill to survive. If I can help any animal I will I have not quilted she passed away 4 days ago. I paid to have her ashes put in a pretty wooden box they said that would help heck if I know. I wanted to share my testimony with you to not only give you encouragement but they give you peace because we always need our Lord and he knows what we need. Here's a picture of Isabel with tears in my eyes I say ado.
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The Lord works in mysterious ways, Amen and God Bless you
You became Selfless and that my friend is one of the HARDEST thing to experience and DO!!! In recovery ❤️🩹
I just love when God shows us his mercy and grace. 
