I haven’t posted in awhile but heres the skinny on my journey. I quit drinking 7/31/24 Did really good and didn’t slip for almost 7 months. I’ve seen a therapist the entire time. Through therapy, I explained my feelings of like I’m basically just existing, not living life, enjoying life. I isolated myself bc my husband is a big drinker(daily) and did things I found joy in. Then I found myself not enjoying them anymore like I used to. After so much of that, I looked for natural things like Brez, Kava, etc. to try lifting my mood and it helped for a while. My therapist described my feeling that way as anhedonia, the lack of feeling pleasure or joy. I now have found myself having a few drinks here and there, playing with fire. Still navigating my own journey. I am a work in progress. I know now that i can quit drinking successfully, after sustaining for 7 months but I have to figure out a new way of dropping alcohol and not slipping into feeling nothingness. Just sharing my experience at this point in my life and pretty sure that wasn’t so skinny lol!
I suggest the rooms of AA. See a therapist is great but it won’t keep you sober.
God can move them mountains, allow him to help you out. Praying for you
Thanks for sharing this! I'm in a similar situation and recommitting to sobriety, as it really is easier. I know we can make it, let's do it
I heardbin a meeting...
Insanity 101 is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result.
Insanity 102 is knowing something works and choosing not to do it.
I hope you hit a bottom so bad that you decide to change your life through a gift of desperation.
If you arent alcoholic with stinkin' thinkin' i wish you the best as a normal drinker. I am not normal and proud today that and know there is a solution that works.
I hope you find your way but for me I simply can not have a little bit now and again as my prior history always repeats itself. I m with Neil on the insanity in my case anyway. I too thought I could control drink and eventually it never worked for me.Good luck I hope your journey is a safe one.
But I totally got the skinny! Relatable. It reminds me of a time…. I never thought I’d quit but boy it took a few rock bottoms I wish I never had to take. Me being stubborn and not putting in the effort I’m sure was a part of my demise.
You know where it goes if you have one and that’s half your answer. You can do this. Let us know how you’re doing. 
Try the NewForm app! It has helped me to stay accountable (on Memorial Day I’ll have 18 months)! NewForm hosts so many virtual and in-person meetings ranging from exercise to art to music to recovery focused meetings! The opposite of addiction is connection!
I hope you don’t hit a rock bottom that takes your life, family, career, etc.) I hope you come to the conclusion that alcohol is simply unnecessary and doesn’t work anyway - you sound clinically depressed - are you taking anything for that (maybe just something temporarily) until your mood and perspective change - you are also fully in control of your perspective - you can “change” the way you think - I took extensive therapy (DBT-dialectic behavior therapy) to do just that - I no longer live on the dark side - when I begin having my negative thoughts, I can now flip them