Hello loosid, its been a long time! But this app has helped me in so many ways. I have been through the ringer to say the least and right now, for today at least even though i do still struggle, every day is not like today, but today i feel like my story is a success story, probably wont feel like it tomorrow but im going to savor every moment of feeling this way. Ill keep it as short as possible. I once had what i thought was a perfect life, married with one daughter of my own as well as two step daughters, ny parents lived close, siblings close, family gatherings got overwhelming sometimes. I raised all the kids, i was with my husband for 20 years. Then we started doing meth. Again long story short, obviously thinfs took q hard turn, he became very abusive, i also was realizing how i have bewn treated that whole time. I wqs never a actual pqrt of their family just dads wife. I loved those kids as my own and needed to know that they cared for me. So one day i up and left, because i wanted to he followed, i wanted to be yelled at, told to get home. But no one did. I decided i wanted out and that wqs the start of the worst 4 years of my life. He hecame so abusive, he ruined any relationship i had because he wanted to take away any chance of any help so thqt i would have no where to go. This includes my parents. And he did just that. Those were awful and dark days. To the point that one day i found myself throwing a handful of pills invmy mouth and realized i had two choices, die or leave. I coupdnt stay there, he ruined everything in thqt town for me. So as extreme as it was i figured still better thqn dieing i up and left, i didnt tell a soul. I got on a plane and cane down to Florida. In 2022. And has not been easy not only have I had to deal with PTSD and Trauma but then here I was on my own in a place I don't know I had one friend that helped me and save my life basically it was not easy for a long time it's still not easy. In 2023 both of my parents died unexpectedly same year that my divorce went through so my overwhelming family get togethers and suddenly I find myself completely alone I do still have my daughter but she lives up in North Carolina still obviously she has a baby and a husband and not really much time for me so I'm on my own for the first time of my life so this is the success part here, so last April I was finding myself whining because I had had a prenuptial so I got nothing when I divorced and I worked for his company so I had no career no money nothing and I find myself whining about how I have to depend on somebody and then I decided I was going to stop whining and do something about it. so at 45 years old I got myself into college chasing the one thing that I have dreamed of doing since I was a child I'm working towards my bachelor's degree in marine biology and on top of that I work full-time on a boat as a first mate and I'm working up my hours so I can get my captain's license. the ocean is always been my thing. so I woke up today and looked in my bank account and saw that I can pay all my bills without asking anybody for any help and I'm doing it, I am actually doing it and as simple as that might sound to a lot of you that is a huge thing for me as like I said this is the first time in my whole life I've ever been on my own and being able to take care of myself has always been really important to me so here I am getting ready to go to work and I just felt grateful and thankful and proud of myself for once ,probably the first time in a long time so I wanted to share. Trust me when I say this if I can do it you can do it
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Thank you for sharing. Keepin yu in my prayers 
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Thank you
@kristina212591 first off 
CONGRATULATIONS on your sobriety. Keep up the good work.
Second... The woman has two butter bars on her shoulders.... NICE. I had two birds.
Third... Life does not stop it keeps on lifing it could give a rats a$$ if we get sober.
Fourth... We care.