Hello my name is Antoinella, I like to be called Monique. I'm new to this site, I'm just coming back from a relapse, this relapse was so sad the worse of any of my other relapeses, I ran for 2 months straight, disregarding everyone who cared for me, if myself, I'm a diabetic and in my run I stopped taking all of my medications including my insulin, now I don't have no feeling in my left leg including my whole foot, so I ended up stepping on a silver house nail which embedded itself in my left foot for 2 days me running never felt or noticed it until I sat down to get high one day, so I pulled it out and kept it moving( continuing to get high) so day by day my left foot started to retain water, again not caring wanting one more. Next thing I notice that my Wight foot is starting to swell as well as my left again me still getting high not caring, me not knowing that I had caught a diabetic infection in my right foot and I still want to get high, my best friend ( whom I get high with) made me got to the hospital on January 1st, January 2nd and 6th I had all 5 of my toes amputated, ask me how I'm dealing with this,, I'm not I'm a hot mess craving to get high, but having my toes amputated also sent me a well understood assignment, they say in the rooms of N/A one is to many and a thousand is never enough, I'm grateful that it was only my toes, and that I'm still alive cause I couldn't ended up somewhere else. Thank u for listening
Wow. Thanks for sharing. I am familiar with diabetes and I can’t imagine going that long without you taking your medication. Is today your first day of soberity?
What was your DOC?
Hi Monique. I am sorry about your toes and the pain you suffered. you are a survivor. You are alive and now you have a chance to stop running to the things that were destroying you. It so brave of you to share your story. Tho mine is different I also have a lot of scars from the choices I made and situations I put myself in just to get high. You aren’t alone and we are all here if you need to talk 
No I've been clean since January 2nd
What's DOC
Thank u Tori
Anytime u need someone to listen hmu. Also doc is drug of choice. That’s amazing What a brand new year for you!
Thank you Jesus!!
Thanks for sharing! If you ever want/need to chat message me!
Crack
I am sorry for all you have been through and still have to deal with. I know that diabetes is a tough disease even under the best circumstances. I am glad you are back on track. I hope you are able to get the support you need. Stay strong! You are worth it!
Hey our name is very similar