Hello you guys 
I am 2 days clean and I am at a weird point . I really want to stay clean this time and knocking on wood I haven’t felt any main withdrawals besides sweatyness and headaches here and there . My bd is still having “his fun” and I feel like I’m missing out. But I know I’m not missing out because it’s nothing but lost and feeling like a prisoner. I keep listening to podcasts and stories to try to keep me on the right track . A part of me is mad that he’s not trying but then the other part isn’t mad because I know he will try to stop when he’s ready. I’ve been wearing my necklace with my kids on it to remember what I’m doing this for and to remember and focus on this not being fair to them. I start back counseling on the 25th and I’m looking forward to it . I know I’m the only one that can do this for me and I’m the only one that can really guide myself on working on a better me. I’m just looking for some support and some ideas on how I can get through this 
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Hang in there! You’ve got this! Keep reaching out and asking for help!
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Thank you 
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