Help. Please

Recovery
#1

I am having an issue where my sobriety is on the line EVERY DAY! This has happened within the last month. I am 7 almost 8 months sober. Not a SINGLE drop of alcohol. Which is SUPER hard for me being an off and on 20 year functioning alcoholic. With this situation, I have a q. Last night at my sister's, (they COMPLETELY respect and support my sobriety.) there were shot glasses for my 4 family members left on the kitchen island. Each one had a small amount of whiskey in them. Not much but just enough to make just shy 1/4 of a shot. I poured them in one. Stood and thought about it for what seemed the longest 30 seconds of my life. I heard my 14 yr old son walk in, I removed my hand from the glass. He hugged me goodnight, asked me if I was okay and then went to bed. I then put my hand on the glass again. This time, I picked it up, smelled it, and seriously thought about downing it. Question for those if us that are trying to recover from alcohol, I know that each one of our recoveries are different. Which is why I'm asking. That small amount of alcohol, do ya'll think that's considered a relapse?

Please don't be a d1ck when you comment. I'm asking sincerely. Thank you

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#2

Not a relaps you didn't down it. We're gonna fight this forever it's gonna sneak up on us and say just a Lil won't hurt it's not even enough to do anything. But you didn't listen in the end it's all that matters. Stay strong and maybe next time if you see em just keep moving through the room don't stop and ask someone to get em.

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#3

I understand I recently went through the same thing where my ex contacting me well, I’m sorry my ex’s new wife contacted me made me feel a certain way and I wasn’t the proudest, but realized I should’ve been

#4

I feel you, babe. I completely understand it.

#5

I don't think its the amount thats the issue. Its more of the why did you drink it. Luckily for you it sounds like you didn't act on the thought and stayed sober. Remember some times the best we can do is just not drink. Sounds like a higher power stepped in and brought your son in the room!
Hang in there it does get better or at least different.

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