I hope everyone is doing well and staying as healthy and happy as possible 
. I’ve been down in Florida at my Dad’s and his Wife’s for the past 3 weeks since my brother passed. It has not been the easiest time for multiple reasons but I am beyond grateful to be here where Benji and I are safe and loved. The sunshine is a huge plus as well!
I have been going to some meetings and not drinking much. My mental health is better but nowhere near where it needs to be so I am sticking to my plan- going to dual-diagnosis inpatient!! I have soooo many underlying issues I need to get to the bottom of and continue working on them for the rest of my life so I never get to the point I was at again!
I decided to go to a treatment center close to where my family lives down here on the SW gulf coast- Whitesands. Nothing bad happened with the place I was going to go to, Futures Palm Beach, but now that I’ve been down here it just makes sense to be closer to family. Things are going better with my Dad and his Wife but a lot more progress needs to be made with them which can now happen sooner with visits and family counseling.
I don’t have anymore strings attached holding me back like I did with my apt in NJ since I finally got everything into storage!!! I got my taxes done and sorted out a few more things since I’ve been down here too..
This took me way to long but I am fully ready to embrace all components of my 30 day inpatient treatment, continue with outpatient, hopefully get back to some kind of work asap, and follow a program forever!
Thank you to all of you guys again for this amazing platform. You have helped me sooo much and I pray for each of you! I have not been very active on here bc I’ve been so busy but in mostly good ways, amen! I am very grateful and blessed that I am able to get the help I know I truly need and deserve. Although it hasn’t exactly been easy for me to get here, I know not everyone has this opportunity so I count my blessings daily.
Lastly- I have agreed to let Benji stay with my Dad and his Wife & the other pups now that he has been transitioned. Not having him with me is going to be soooo hard, especially at night but I keep reminding myself 1-2 visits a week and it’s only 30days w/o him! 
I will be able to have access to my phone in the evening hours so I will stay in touch.
Prayers and positive vibes for everyone
Means a lot!