Hey everyone been a while since I’ve been on here engaged. I’ve been very busy lately. With work, out patient, probation, launching my career path, taking care of two puppies, helping my roommates with her two kids who call me their uncle, and just trying to stay out of trouble. I recently have been feeling very lonely. It’s been exactly 2 years since me and my ex broke up which contributed to my downfall before checking myself into rehab. I did meet a girl when I first got sober, but we were both fresh of drugs. I didn’t think it was a good idea to fully try to talk to her that early. We did hang out and do everything together. We exchanged numbers right before I decided I needed to be away longer. When I got to a facility where I was able to have my phone I messaged her right away. The only problem is she moved 4hrs away where I was supposed to move as well. I was able to visit her once but because of probation I am very limited until I develop trust. I do like her and care about her a lot but I don’t know how to tell her that I want to be more than friends, and I don’t know if it’s worth it trying to do a distanced relationship for her. For me I don’t mind right now. I want to go visit her soon but I don’t know how to approach it and what to say really. For me when I feel like this lonely surrounded by people and depressed I usually self sabotage and go down a wrong path. I no longer want to self sabotage. I no longer want to talk to the wrong girls who are toxic to me but familiar. I’m just tired of sitting here alone at night when my roommate is sleeping and I’m my head. Normally when I feel this way in the past I end up at a bar talking to all the wrong people. I moved from my hometown which was the best thing for me, but now I want more in life. Idk I guess I’m just venting and asking for friendly advice. I’ve found that if I express what’s in my head it helps me or others.
