Hey guys. Am on day three but kinda sad that I relapsed again. I drank for a little over 24 hours or so and stopped myself but have the depression, guilt, and self hatred back. I have been hiding my relationship from my sponsor and he tells me I cant get sober and wont work with me further unless I drop the relationship. I dropped the sponsor. I made it to step 4 but have trauma and had a hard time with it.
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Be kind to yourself, don't let the slip hurt your progress mentally. Get to a meeting and be with friends man. You've got this!
Thank you buddy.
In my opinion it's ok to feel those things. Trying to burry or hide those emotions can only build more anxiety and trouble... I did the same thing until I realized I needed something to replace my craving. For me it was healthy cooking and learning new recipes. Not that that's what you need but just think outside the box. You don't need to turn into a gym rat or join a group that makes you feel guilty. AA is fantastic and helps countless people but it wasn't for me. I had to break down and spill my guts to a couple of close friends and they are my "AA". They check on me, help me, and have become like family. Find something or someone that takes up your time and start there. The guilt will be there, the tears will be there. Just stand tall, shoulders back, head high, and a middle finger to the cravings. You got this man 
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