Hey guys, I guess today we're gonna talk about learning how to love yourself again. When nobody else will first off, it is not up for someone else to love you or show you love. The idea is to love yourself and show people how to treat you or how you want to be. Loved it's called setting boundaries, it's called getting out of your own way and learning to love yourself. It's called making peace with your past so no one can use it against you, it's called showing up for you. Even when The Times are rough and hard, it's loving yourself beyond the edges of your roughness for so long, I was lost. And I thought that I couldn't get anybody to love me until I changed myself into the persona that I wanted to be not knowing that if I loved me enough, the way that I should have loved me and not ever gone out there in the first place or found someone to talk to that, I would have never ended up in the situation that I was in. In the beginning, but I was sitting there and I was trying to hide my Self my problems , trying to self medicate myself to wear , I felt like I can hide behind my addiction i had so many excuses for not wanting to get clean or stay clean. None of them were all good excuses. I was sabotaging my life. I was making excuses for myself because I didn't want to deal with what hurt the most. And that was things that had entered into my childhood. I felt like if I kept my mouth closing my head down that it wouldn't get out and I wouldn't have to deal with it. So 1 day, I woke up and decided enough is enough, and I was sitting there and that I was looking at a cemetery across the street from my home. And I realized that I didn't want to die in addict. I did not want anyone to find me in an abandoned house or rushed me to the hospital for an overdose. I felt like dealing with my problems. Was the last thing anybody wanted to hear? Especially since I was always the family savior. I was the one that was listening to everybody else's problems. And I was the one that was helping everybody else do everything and stuff for helping myself longer for something that was no longer there, I was lost searching. But then I came to light, I saw myself stripped naked and all, and I didn't like what I saw so then 1 day I decided you're gonna do this and you're gonna do it the right way because I got tired. And God spoke, he said that he would walk with me through my storm and carry me through the other side, and I believe that with everything in me as a result of that, I've managed to have almost 4 years of sobriety, I owe that simply to the fact that I learned how to love. Myself and I learned how to put God first I don't owe anybody any excuses for how I am, because I learned how to protect myself in Waze to and not hide who I am or what I did or how I get it anymore. I found my level of comfort and in that comfort, I found love joy, peace, understanding and most of all humility. I found out that I can humble myself enough to get help. And I did so as a result of that, I stand here able to give you advice or listen to your problems and we can hopefully come to a solution together, I didn't get clean alone. It took it on me. The Army took My problems, our army took my unbrokenness and Ernie took all of that pain and told me what to do with it and where to place it and how to deal with it as a result of that, I have an army of one I am a earninge of many and I continue to thrive in my recovery. I'm always here, guys if you ever wanna talk or just meet someone to hear you.Because no one else will and thank you all for walking with me through my journey.Let's see what the rest of 2026 brings.I love you all stay faded
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