Hi all. Alittle sharing for me. I am

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Hi all. Alittle sharing for me. I am a career alcoholic. 30 years. Good recovery here and there. For the most part a very heavy drinker. I even got a master’s degree in clinical psychology and substance abuse thinking I could cure me. A 4.0 as a full blown drunk. I counseled and helped others, but could not help me.

Well two weeks ago I hit rock bottom and finally after all these years got the call of desperation. I detoxed myself which was agonizing. I was so sick. I truly wanted to die. I had a spiritual awakening while Puking, pooping and sweating what smelled like rotten eggs for over a week. Couldn’t eat or sleep. My legs were like rubber. My equilibrium was totally off. I know I will never drink again. My body cannot take another detox like that.

My point is never give up! Thirty years but I know that was my last detox or die. No exaggeration.

I am terrible and don’t do well in organized groups from scouts as a young girl, church, AA. Like oil and water. So working a program pretty much alone. But you should! I am an outlier. A few friends that work the program and now Loosid. Very happy to be here.

Remember, it is easier to stay sober than to get sober. I feel marvelous. Back to walking four miles a day, reading, cooking. So much time, I don’t know what to do next. Excited and grateful to have a new life. I am reborn!

Here to chat. Here to help. I have done it all rehab, DUI, broken jaw, black eyes, blackouts, passing out in public, you name it, I have probably done it as a drunk!

Love and hugs to all :hugs:

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My memories of detox can get me past a craving, but I wouldn’t be sober without a program. Those bad memories can fade over time and start to not seem so bad. The obsession is not deterred by consequences. I had to change my life. AA takes the obsession away from me.

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Thank you for your testimony… God bless you !! That was so raw! :pray:🫂

#4

I beg to differ. I have had several good periods of recovery. But never rock bottom or a spiritual awakening. I have counseled people and worked the preamble and watched those gave success in and out of a program. I highly recommend one for lost people. I just know after 30 long years I finally have had that awakening. I work with friends in recovery. Organized anything will be a set back for me. I respect your opinion. And wish you the very best in your program and in recovery!

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#5

I would like to share what was share to me by my temporary sponsor “ every morning kneel and thank your higher power for waking you up to fight the fight

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That’s not my opinion. I told you my experience. You are arguing with what I think has kept me sober? I don’t understand.

#7

And thank you for sharing your experience. Not arguing at all. Recovery isn’t one size fits all. So happy that meetings are doing it for you. Blessed you are! Wish it worked for me. Unfortunately they don’t. It is not a good thing. Not something to brag about for sure. I have a close support group and now everyone on here. I know in my heart of hearts I have retired from my drinking career. Big book, zoom meetings and friends in recovery are my best bet for staying sober! Stay well my friend!:blush:

#8

Wow Cathy! Thank you for sharing that. I never looked at your posts. You’re an inspiration & give me so much hope! I’m trying it the “traditional” way once and for all which I hope works :pray:t3:. We have been down a similar path with our drinking, education, and careers.. I’ve finally had my wake up call that it’s time to help myself before more than blackouts, a chipped tooth, some black & blues, losing things, making a fool of myself, and relationship issues continue happening :pray:t3:. The hangovers/self detox’s are neeeeever eeevvvveeerrr fun & they scare the sh*t out of me so I constantly remind myself of them as well! Poison!!!! Xoxo

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#9

Fully agree with the traditional way. I did that for several years. Worked the steps with a sponsor. Have notebooks full of information. So I know what to do, and could not do this myself if I didn’t have that background. Fortunately my old home group has zoom meetings as well as in person. I do the zoom with them and feel like I am still a part.

As for my past, tip of the iceberg with what I shared. I experienced it all!They say you will end up in an institution, jail or death. Well exhausted the institutions, experienced jail, and literally was on death’s doorstep. Thank God I got that awakening or so would not be here right now. Reach out any time. Totally transparent in my quest to now help others! Take care. Stay in touch! :blush:

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#10

Thank you!!! I pray I’ve experienced enough bc I don’t want to experience any worse! :pray:t3::heart: Working hard now! (If only my sleep schedule would agree :woman_facepalming:t3:..I know it will in time)

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Thank you :pray:t2:

#12

I always love seeing a career alcoholic retire.

#13

Thank you for sharing your story. I can certainly relate to being a career alcoholic. I did detox and am so glad I am sober. 2 years now and as you said a lot of time on my hands now!