Hi comunity im struggling with something today. I am having thaughts of relaps i have to go out and im not sure if i can be strong enough. I know sooner than later im going to have to come out and travel more than 3 blocks. I know im not that weak but i worr thinking about where i have to travel im willing to go out of my way and around bad spots of philly i just need to find new roughts to get to where i need to go. I already talked to my daughter about it she wants to keep me inside but i havw to get out to iop on mon and i also need to go to social security I have to go to meetins i tried zoom but its not the same as going i dont want another relaps. My anxiety is off the charts just thinking about it and i leep taking my will back from god im so used to doing anything and its so easy to do wrong and putting in hard work to stay sober i feel the need to work harder i need meetings there are none close to me The iop will help i just have to get there and back and stay sober and on track
Im just curious if you have any support who could tag along with you even if it is just until you are feeling strong enough.Also if you have a sponsor maybe she or he could pic you up or meet you and go to meetings together. I hope you find the help you need right now but it sounds to me like you are half way there just realizing your boundries. Keep up the good work we are all work in progress. We didn't get where we are over night so don't be hard on yourself things will get easier for you in time.Be patient and not hard on yourself. You know what you can handle so don't lose focus on th. Good luck.
Hello Takia, I feel the anxiety for sure and have been there. You know you want to be sober, so let's tackle the anxiety. Have you tried the guided meditations available on this app?
Really good suggestions here. I was completely absorbed in anxiety when i first got out of detox and into iop. Do you have a ride service through your insurance that would just take you there (wherever that is for the day) and back?
When i was doing iop, which was such a blessing, btw, i would only go one place a day. And the rest of my time I spent at home, mostly reading or cooking for my family. Then I started working half days and pretty soon, I was doing iop/work/meeting all in the same day.
We only need focus on today. God covered you all of those dangerous, scary moments in the past. He will be with you through these scary times, too. We're just focusing on the next right thing. That is all we can do.
I pray you another safe, sober 24... 
Be strong and tell the devil not today Satan. Be the boss lady you need to be and tell temptation to get away from you. Your God's child and no weapon formed against you will prosper. God be with you
I’m so weird to put this iop off I didn’t go today I should never be afraid to do something good for myself I wasn’t afraid to do the horrible things I did in order to get hi so what am I actually afraid of. I’m getting up in the morning and getting ready and heading out my daughter says she’s going to walk me to the bus stop I’m going to do it scared with my head held high because I know I can I need to do this