Hi I’m Trina I’m an addict and an alcoholic to day I am 41 days clean and it feels good but sometimes scary I’m so scared that I’m going to go back to the person I used to be I ave been having those dreams of me using again and I don’t want to I’m so scared I’m going to fail I know that I’m determined not to cuz there was a time I didn’t love myself I really didn’t know how to love myself I used to want to escape reality but I see now that their ain’t no way to do that and I must face my fears head on and deal with my past and what’s been haunting me I feel so bad that my mother didn’t get a chance to see me sober while she was living she just past on October 25 and I think that’s my biggest regret but I’m doing this for my self first cause I finally love myself I love my kids unconditionally n my higher power whom I call god I just know that if I ever feel weak I just gotta keep praying and journal and get to a meeting or call somebody and another thing I need a sponsor so thanx for letting me share
Thank you for sharing. Getting everything out there sometimes takes away the fear and the power we sometimes give to the fear. I am also sorry to hear about your loss. It can be scary when we start anything new regardless of how motivated we are in our thoughts and actions. From what I read it sounds as though you're on the right path and headed in the correct direction. Keep up the good work. 
Thanx I really appreciate it
Most welcome.
Amazing share. Buried my father 2/5/22. I stopped drinking before his hospice so he passed with me sober. But Im back again now that he passed and trying to get it together. You are definitely an inspiration.
Thanx… I’m so sorry for your lost I know how hard it is but keep being strong that’s gonna keep your determination n your strength to wanna continue your sobriety
That's good keep up the good work
Thanx u too
You can totally do this
God bless you Trina. Stay strong and let the Lord strengthen you in all your ways. Your faith will keep you safe. Thank you for sharing.