Hi there! I don't think I understand this app yet, but I think I am where I need to be. I didn't have my first drink until I was 21 and I miss my life before I ever tried alcohol. I was so smart and dedicated, but that is so hard for me to continue when alcohol is a part of my life. I can't drink like my friends do and I think that's a bad sign. Once I start drinking I don't want to stop. I regret drinking every time I do it, but I don't think I'm strong enough to quit on my own. I feel like people won't want to hang out with me anymore or I won't be fun if I don't drink. But I do want to quit. I think I just need more support? Does anyone feel this way? The fact that I know what's best for me but I can't do it tells me that something is wrong. I know my potential and I want so much for myself, but I don't think I can do that with alcohol involved.
Hey Amanda, you are in the right place. I had the same problem, couldn’t just have a drink or two but had to have 10 plus. Regrets galore the next day. It’s a good thing you’ve come to the realization that alcohol isn’t good for you and you’re taking the necessary steps to change your life in a positive way. Honestly if people don’t want to hang out with you because you don’t want to drink anymore than that’s their problem. You’ve got to do what’s best for you. You got this, you’ll see how much your life improves for the better once you’ve stopped. You’ll turn back into the smart driven person you know was there before you started drinking, she will return.
With a M.O. like that, it may be hard to quit by yourself. Consider going to AA - for fellowship with others that have the same issue, and to gain tools to help you achieve and maintain your sobriety. Walking into that first meeting takes courage, but self-identify as a newcomer at your first meeting and people will step-up to introduce themselves. “I can’t, but we can”. It’s helped millions of people worldwide.
This is worth a listen. What you are describing is not unique. As people are reading your post they are nodding their heads on here.
This resonated so much with me…you’re not alone 
Hi Amanda, Shawn has the right chapter of AA's Big Book. What helped me was learning the why. The easiest book to read is Alcohol Explained by William Porter. To me they should go hand in hand. Best of luck, reach out anytime 
Hi and welcome - this app has been a really great tool, I feel, and I hope the same becomes true for you. Always happy to chat, and sending positive vibes 
Hi Amanda, Before I got sober, I was afraid of the very same things. I was convinced I would never have fun again. I just celebrated 5 years of sobriety on the 8th, and I can tell you that there is joy and fun in sobriety. I’m not saying it isn’t difficult, but I can say I have never regretted getting sober. Best of luck to you!
You are not alone. Welcome to the Loosid community 
It’s sounds like you started drinking to fit in with a social circle. The alcohol worked. Now you want to be that same person without alcohol
Your going to have to get a sponcer and work the 12 steps.
Welcome Amanda! Welcome to Loosid where you can share, get helpful tips and be of service to others in sobriety. You’re definitely in the right place. I thank you for sharing your journey with alcohol. Yes, I too, am an alcoholic. The cool for me today is I’m a recovered Alcoholic. I was once in a seemingly hopeless state of mind and body. The 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous have shown me a way of life I never thought possible. To help answer your question about being fun and sober, the answer is yes it’s totally possible. Yesterday I went to the beach with a friend. I was able to make us a beautiful salad, have snacks, treats and non alcoholic beverages and just enjoy each other’s company. We did a meditation session, walked along the beach. Afterwards we went out to dinner and a movie. I have to say that I was able to be myself and just let go of the old me. Good stories, great laughs and moments of joyous silence made for a beautiful sober Saturday. Another great part is I woke up sober, no hangover and refreshed. It’s very possible to live a fun joyous life without alcohol. I had to change or limit my time with my old drinking friends as I found out it’s not fun to be around those that drink like I do… I’m not saying to get rid of your friends just learn who is a friend and who is a drinking friend. Have a blessed and safe sobriety… this is a spiritual journey. You’re making a wise decision. Healthy choices.
I definitely am. Know that story oh so well. Stay strong and you got this.
You aren’t alone. Yes you are in the right place and taking great strides to a better tomorrow. Look to meetings for more and closer support
Thanks everyone for all the support! I definitely like this app and how supportive everyone is!
Hi Amanda - I resonate with your story so much. I’ve been told many times that I am not an alcoholic because I don’t get the shakes or need to reach for a drink every day. But once I do start drinking I don’t want to stop and have gotten myself into some dangerous situation and been embarrassed quite a bit. I’d love to connect if you are interested. I am on day 2 of my journey and looking for friends / support.
I’m so proud of you for making this decision at such a young age. I am 31 now. Waited until 28 to realize I had a problem and 30 until I did something about it. I almost ruined my life in my late 20s. Get help now. Have your future self be your hero.
YES!! I feel exactly that way. I don’t feel like I’m as fun and as outgoing/social without drinking. I haven’t been social since I’ve been sober. I guess I’m afraid of the temptation to drink. I know I can’t avoid it forever and will have to be able to be social without it. Not ready yet lol