Hello and happy new year 2025 to this wonderful community. It's been forever since i wrote here. Over 8 months.
I tried to focus the best I could to get stronger and work on some personal issues but once again, my head is just spinning more than anything else.
As much as I'm still sober, over 8 years (November 28th 2016), as much as I love to help out, reach out and bring positivity and hope to a lot of yous, as much as it feels so good to know I'm having a good impact on people and can inspire some, inside, I feel lost, I feel lonely, alone, confused and depressed.
Not to talk about myself, I'll always be there to help and I ove it, but why is it so hard to apply to myself all the things I can say to others... Why is my first thought that I don't deserve it.
My beautiful 20 months old daughter should be a good enough reason for me to smile and see that I'm at least an OK father and human being. But again, I just feel like I'm not good enough.
I can already see that some of you will talk to me about God, or the 12 steps, and it's ok, I appreciate it very much, it just doesn't work for me. So what other alternative could help that are not related to that?
Thank you, to all of you, this is the only app that I kept and follow. This community is really important and please reach out if you ever need it. I'm here. 
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