I’m almost 60 days sober and some days I’m super positive and excited about the future and other days I’m really really down and angry/sad. One day I’m planning all the things that I’m excited for in sobriety and wondering what the future is going to bring and the next I’m drowning in a self pity party full of resentment that this is my life. The highs and lows are so extreme and I don’t know how to handle it at times. Does anyone else feel like this? Any tips?
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I’d say it sounds perfect normal for two months in. Are you working the 12 steps of recovery? They helped me tremendously with these types of obstacles in my recovery.
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Life in general has ups and downs. Getting sober doesn't take away the downs, but it does save you from destroying your life. And it does help you make your ups more meaningful.
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Be good to yourself Megan treat yourself well. Beware of getting too hungry, angry, lonely or tired. This is what our defenses breakdown. You’re a miracle treat yourself well.
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At 60 days myself, and I completely relate.
As it was said by another, give yourself grace to feel roller coaster of emotions of early sobriety.
It wasn’t until someone pointed out that my holding on to
Resentment and anger is me holding me back-once I realized I could forgive-for myself, I went from surviving to cultivating a life that doesn’t require me to be in constant survival mode. The act of digging deep and writing a self-forgiveness letter followed by a goodbye letter to addiction definitely helped. 
hang in there. Everything is temporary and you are a queen.
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I have. I've been trying to even out the highs and lows with baby steps, to bring 'normal' up some, but not get so high emotionally that I crash later. Putting down the booze has helped a bunch for sure. I've realized that there will always be work to do, and am working to enjoy that.
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Yes, many of us experience similar emotions. Part of it I believe is the chemical imbalance, it gets so much better over time. Another large part is our own internal balance and our bodies and in our minds. I find yoga very helpful. Journaling has always been so very helpful and when I forget to do it it shows in my actions and my speech in my life. It does get much better I promise you that! You have such a bright future. Better than you are even imagining!
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Felt the same way! Took me at least 90 days to start feeling like myself again. Anxiety and depression through the roof but it’s gets better
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I’m 110 days in, and I can honestly say that it does get better. I still have to continually do self checks though. At two months I was still an absolute basket case. I know it sounds crazy, but I have to literally sit there and make a continuous effort to ground myself when I hit the really low lows, and even the really high highs. For me it takes me actually sitting down, taking a big deep breath, and to try and notice every little detail of my surroundings to realize that the past, nor the future really matter. Staying in the moment is detrimental to me because I’m a worry wart. Hope this helps! Keep strong and hit a meeting!
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I’m at 88 and it gets better. I wasn’t used to not drinking or drugging when I didn’t feel well so it is new to sit with feelings. But the more times I got passed them and ended the day sober, the easier it has become the next time it happened
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Well said Eric 
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I have these same highs and lows. Just take it one day at a time
High and lows are part of this secular world. That never changes for anyone. Prayer and supplication have been my remedy.
Normal. For me I always ask myself what's on my dopamine stack today. Am I going to wake up early and get some exercise? If so that will make me feel better all day. What else? A good night's sleep, healthy food, good connections w friends, family, am I working towards my goals personal and professional, on and on. Positive dopamine replaces the false promise of hope and optimism from drinking. Keep doing what your doing and make sure your dopamine stack is full every day.
I’m 89 days today and found this month to have way less up and downs but still have glimpses of feeling regretful/embarrassed about my past. I have a sponsor and other men in AA when these thoughts come. It feels so much better after I say it out loud. They too have had the same experiences. But it does get better. Just keeping it in the day and the moment. Every day might not be better than the last but my sobriety feels stronger every day.