Just want to drink l have the F it coming up on six years l really don’t care about sobriety anymore
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Wait a day...just one day...see how you feel tomorrow 
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Can you expand? What's has happened or hasn't happened to make you think drinking will help?
I know when I've had similar thoughts I reflect back on the destruction that drinking caused. In my head, taking another drink would end all I've tried to hard to rebuild over the years.
Understand that it's ok to feel the way you are. You stoped here to express your feelings so hopefully there is enough in there to recognize your sobriety is extremely valuable
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Just a bad day maybe thinking l can finally drink normal after almost six years
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That's a tough one. Your long term sobriety may lend some creadence to your curiosity. In rehab, they swore that we'd never be able to drink "normal". I tried that many times and failed ,but there's still part of me that has similar thoughts as you.
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Any bad day I ever had...drinking made my bad day far worse! Without fail...
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Oof I'm 10 months sober and had that same thought! I was on a bicycle ride the other day and told myself I was allowed a drink on my one year anniversary 
... wild right? To celebrate a year of not drinking I'll drink? I called a fellow and he said, "why wait two months?" Which made me realize I needed to stay in the day. If I start planning to drink i probably will. I went to a meeting and told on myself 
. Now I'm planning on drinking a smoothie and watching the sunset.
Ultimately you have to decide what you want for yourself. We all have another drunk in us but many of us won't be lucky to get another recovery.
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You’ll be back to tell us you wish you hadn’t and ridden with guilt and shame. It’s so not worth it.
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Meeting-be honest and share.
I have found the between years 3 or 4 until about year 8, the most relapses happed due to complacency and the thoughts of “having it.” Resulting in less in person meetings and sober connections.
Just an observation-not fact.
Also, GRATITUDE and “MOVE A MUSCLE CHANGE A THOUGHT!”
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Please don't make the same mistake I made TWICE ...I drank after having 7 years of sobriety two separate times. I can never drink normally or safely...I always end up drunk at the worst possible time. Please keep putting off picking up One day at a time until you don't want to drink.
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I was 24 years sober Carrie, I had a slipped last year and cannot get back to where I was! It's way harder very harder to get sober the second time don't make the big mistake do not take that first drink God will provide
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Thank you so much
Thank you so much for your kind words
look i get it. i have been sober 6 years and i relapsed so many times for that same reason. i fell low enough to know that if i ever take a sip i die.
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Took me a lot of years and relapses to finally admit that I can never drink like a normal person ever again! Accepting it this time around and sticking with meetings has kept me sober 2 yrs now. Acceptance and surrender!
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I needed to read this so thank u for posting ! Esp the part that we all have an drunk inside of us! Mine creeps out n whispers “go grab a drink, no one will know n u can stop at one now “ NO WAY I tell myself !
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