So I wrote down on the app earlier this evening and it’s all correct and true!! But; I’m mentally exhausted and struggling to carry on, Let alone sober… Yes I’m sober and fighting my demons because I’m currently living with my parents and my granddaughter is with me and just the stress of worrying about the fact my mom is 79 & my dad is 75 years old I’m scared of what is me and my daughter and granddaughter’s future going to be like without there love and support and help bless them and holding the weight is so darn heavy and my daughter I keep wondering what if I get that call every single parent doesn’t ever want to get, My daughter is a younger me! Crazy, Insanity, Is only the flame on my candle. Please god help me go on clean & sober for my family. Please god. IM IN A PANIC STATE!!
So what’s the problem?
I find journaling helps, also have you considered therapy? I have lost both my parents and therapy helped a lot
What I do when I worry/overthink is stay in today and do something positive. Go to a meeting. Call a friend. Stop thinking. Go for a walk. Get outside. Look at the positives. You’re sober and sharing about it. Put on some music you like.
Hi Kimberly, I have lived in the same house all of my life. When I was married, my wife moved in with us. And the kids. I relied heavily on other people, especially in heavy addiction. When my wife left I didn’t think I could make it, especially staying sober. In the beginning I quit so she wouldn’t leave. Recently my mom started dating someone and lives with him. I still tried to depend on her and it wasn’t working. I started taking over her duties. Learning how to shop for 2 weeks at a time, keeping thing cleanish, transporting the kids. I didn’t think I could do any of on my own. Tonight, I will be alone. Something I am still not use to. But I know that I will be ok. I really surprised myself. Keep moving forward.
I can relate to your situation Kimberly. The past was filling me with guilt and shame and I was paralyzed with fear thinking about the future. All we have is right now this very second!! And it sounds to me like you’re surrounded by love!! Do the very best you can right now and love your parents and granddaughter with all your heart!! Worry about right now and let your higher power worry about everything else. You can do this Kimberly!!!!!
Thank you