HOW AM I EVER GOING TO GET CLEAN. I made it for 4 days, duffy feel like death worn over. i was ok, then i gutted i got bored and went and used! So dumb!
Stop being "bored". Go to meetings. It's all right there for you, do the work, the work right now is simply get to meetings as much as possible. If you're at a meeting, you're not using. You can do this.