How do I give myself the best chance to start this off correctly? I have been able to go a week or 2 without using and actually feel pretty good but then the intrusive thoughts creep in and the next thing you know I'm back at the beginning. I can't do meetings or rehab. I feel I can do this, I want to.
Why not meetings? It's your addiction telling you not to go to meetings because your addiction doesn't want you to get well.
I live in a very small town and am deeply involved in the public. I know people who go to almost all of the meetings. They are people I see regularly due to my job. Online meetings would be optimal- I would like to connect with others in a meetings setting but feel my options are limited. Do you have any experience with online meetings?
Online is a good option, and you can jump in to one almost any time. But in my experience, in person gives you the connection to the community. Working the steps is easier with a sponsor and face to face. The best part of AA is the fellowship, IMO. Sobriety is a lifestyle change. If nothing changes, nothing changes. You ultimately need to do what is best for you. If you know people at meetings, they most likely know something that could help you, so that is just an excuse your addiction is using to get its way. Good luck. Hope you find peace.
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