I binge drink. I can go days without drinking, but as soon as I do drink, it is always WAY too much. I drink 15 or more drinks almost every time. I don't cause trouble, I don't drink and drive, but the amount I drink at once is really bad for my long term health (I am in my 40's). My daughter (12) has expressed that she hates that I drink. My husband of 13 years doesn’t drink, but doesn’t understand why I want to quit since I don't get out of control in a negative way even when I am black out drunk. I do get giggly, and we frequently laugh about the silly things I said or did the next day. I want to stop for my future health, but for some reason, I can only ever make it a few days before I am craving and give in...which indicates to me that I have more of a problem than I would like to admit. On the other side of the coin, I love drinking and have so much fun. I don't want to stop.
Unfortunately over time alcohol wins! You’re in a tough spot. Once upon a time I was there. Almost same situation. Never in trouble, no drinking and driving, but over time it became daily.
I do fear that it will turn daily. Hopefully I can find my way out before that happens!
Not how often you drink it’s what happens when you do. If you don’t want to it will be difficult
Have you thought about MAT and therapy?
Maybe try to go to a aa meeting cause in the long run the drink always wins but it’s your choice and you have to be willing to do something different to try and stop
I would read Alan Carr's quit drinking without willpower book.
Meghan, I was a binge drinker. A high functioning alcoholic that had a successful career and intact relationships. However, my alcoholism progressed and I was no longer in control at all.
My health quickly declined and dang near died multiple times. Internal bleeding, hallucinations etc., and my career and relationships with the people I love went away. You can wait until it gets worse or you can learn from other people’s experiences.
Most folks gotta go to the bitter end and don’t make it out.
I’m one of the lucky ones with 17 years of grateful sobriety. I’m here if you want to talk or have any questions
You said your daughter hates that you drink. Do it for her!
You have to do it for yourself and you have to want to do it. If you think it's a problem then it is a problem.