I binge drink. I can go days without drinking, but as soon as I do drink, it is always WAY too much. I drink 15 or more drinks almost every time. I don't cause trouble, I don't drink and drive, but the amount I drink at once is really bad for my long term health (I am in my 40's). My daughter (12) has expressed that she hates that I drink. My husband of 13 years doesn’t drink, but doesn’t understand why I want to quit since I don't get out of control in a negative way even when I am black out drunk. I do get giggly, and we frequently laugh about the silly things I said or did the next day. I want to stop for my future health, but for some reason, I can only ever make it a few days before I am craving and give in...which indicates to me that I have more of a problem than I would like to admit. On the other side of the coin, I love drinking and have so much fun. I don't want to stop.
Unfortunately over time alcohol wins! You’re in a tough spot. Once upon a time I was there. Almost same situation. Never in trouble, no drinking and driving, but over time it became daily.
I do fear that it will turn daily. Hopefully I can find my way out before that happens!
Not how often you drink it’s what happens when you do. If you don’t want to it will be difficult
Have you thought about MAT and therapy?
Maybe try to go to a aa meeting cause in the long run the drink always wins but it’s your choice and you have to be willing to do something different to try and stop
I would read Alan Carr's quit drinking without willpower book.
Meghan, I was a binge drinker. A high functioning alcoholic that had a successful career and intact relationships. However, my alcoholism progressed and I was no longer in control at all.
My health quickly declined and dang near died multiple times. Internal bleeding, hallucinations etc., and my career and relationships with the people I love went away. You can wait until it gets worse or you can learn from other people’s experiences.
Most folks gotta go to the bitter end and don’t make it out.
I’m one of the lucky ones with 17 years of grateful sobriety. I’m here if you want to talk or have any questions
You said your daughter hates that you drink. Do it for her!
You have to do it for yourself and you have to want to do it. If you think it's a problem then it is a problem.
Quit while you're ahead you'll be doing yourself a big favor in the long run.
Danny can you friend me I don’t even
Know how to maneuver the site that’s his long I been off
What is MAT?
Thank you for telling me your story. I found it to be an eye opener and a likely prediction of what is to come if I don't stop. It was a very helpful comment 
Medication Assisted Treatment. If your are interested, explore Naltroxone for alcohol. It works on the part of the brain that craves alcohol. When coupled with therapy, the results can be absolutely life changing. I used it for the first year of sobriety and I went to rehab for 52 days, and then continued with OP therapy for my issues. I highly encourage an inquiry! Hugs and good luck.
We are already friends Nando😊
Yeah, that tells you right there that you’re not a “ funny” or “ pretty” drunk, ( I don’t believe there is such a thing)
I remember being at a similar phase when I was a drinker.
I had control until I didn’t.
It was fun until it wasn’t.
Being hospitalized with a bleeding ulcer and needing blood transfusions made drinking not fun anymore. It was at this point that I wanted to stop.
The cost was far more than the purchase price.