Hi. I love documentaries I watch the them every night. Do you know channel.
You can find pieces of it on youtube. It’s by Dr. Kevin McCauley, who is in recovery. Does a wonderful job of exploring whether addiction is a disease.
Wonderful thank you.
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I’m sorry you’re going through that. It really sucks. Hopefully with more time and understanding it’ll get better.
Yes. It makes being positive in sobriety real hard. Thank you. Really happy I joined this site. The encouragement means so much. Are you all from everywhere in the US
All over, I’d say
Very nice. I need to connect with RI people in the program besides my recovery team. Inperson meetings soon. 
Good luck!
Thank you everyone. I will be here no matter what.
Walk a way .don’t fight.go to more meetings.
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Looking for Taylor
Nancy, the Doctors opinion, more about alcoholism, to the wives, and the family afterwards are really great reads for spouses and family members. However it’s very difficult to get normies to understand what we go through as alcoholics.
I recently had one of my sponsees mother email me. She was very concerned of her son and his behaviors. I was able to give her a few suggestions. She had picked up the Al-anon book and started reading it. She’s very grateful that I’m helping her son.
Not always will we get family members to be open and willing to put in the work as much as we do. We can only keep our side clean. Keep showing up, work the steps. cease fighting anything and anyone, and relationships will either work or they won’t.
I’ve tried to explain it to my mom and it wasn’t happening. She just didn’t get it. She’s the type who would say just don’t drink. Just be good. But I no longer have to prove a point just show her by doing what I say I’m doing…
I need to be honest at this point. That’s what I do. My sobriety has not been easy from day 1. I had hopefully my last relapse in 2020 when the pandemic started. I kept it a secret until bottles were found. Now almost 19 months later and I am being hit with so much. It never ends. Not just sobriety but health and family. I am to the point that when I go to meetings and listen to people say how wonderful and happy they are at this point I can’t relate. I feel like I will never get like them. I don’t mean to sound like poor me but I probably do. Depression and anxiety is through the roof. I know drinking won’t help and don’t want to do it again I just feel lost at this point. Crazy.
Thank you for sharing this with us Nancy. You’re not alone with this feeling and self pity emotions. I’ve recently had a profound experience in my sobriety that if I practice this new form of meditation I can release or turn off the flight or fight mechanism that I’ve been in for the last 26 years of my life. My negative thoughts were a direct response to an event that had happened not once but repeatedly throughout my childhood and into young adult. The trauma wasn’t from the events themselves but in how I responded to them. How I associated them to the way I feel.
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Now that I’m aware of this and have turned towards meditation and breathing techniques to change the stored energy in my body I’m beginning to heal from the suffering I caused. My suffering symptoms are in the form of bloated gut, flaky dry skin, lower back pain, fatigue, irritability, anger, fears and anxiety. I was running on self will and negative emotions. It’s a process that will take lots of work on our part. Patience for ourselves. For me the first step in my recovery started with hospital for mental and chemical dependency health. From there I was introduced to AA, NA, life ring, recovery dharma, refuge recovery and therapy. Now that I’m a full member of AA( I work the 12 steps daily and sponsor others) and go to church I’ve also ventured into meditation practice by Dr. Joe Dispenza. I believe that this new way of meditation for me will help me see more clearly on how and where I stored my negative energy in the body.
Thank you. I need to try meditation.
It all takes time .I went to meetings every day for a year.it takes action and meet a lot of people.change doesn’t happen over night.keep on it !!!.
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