This isn't a story chapter.. this is how I actually am feeling.
I am used to mood fluctuation and dealing with I feel down times and just rolling with it and 95 percent I am a happy go lucky and optimistic mr. Brightside human. As much I attempt to be in acceptance and make an effort to make friends in the real world it just isn't happening at the moment I have good support from here and great close and distant family support. I have one friend where I live and an old school long distance friend from back in the day. Yet it is beginning to get to me being alone. Solitude I am good with. Traveling by myself during the pandemic as I did I got used to it. I got know myself better and grow and I am still doing that yet it is different. I can sit with myself and be at peace no issues there and comfortable in my own skin. I am not a meetings type of human as I said before and financially strapped for cash at the moment and meet up groups in person are few and far between where I am. I am figuring that the universe or life or a dog dreaming all this wants me to sit in my stuff at this point and the right people in reality will come along at the right time. Yet it does get lonesome. Thank you for listening.