I accepted that I will never make it out of this. I am too broken. The emotional damage from my 10 year marriage and how she destroyed my entire psyche, I cant fix it. I lost 7 months os sobriety last week to survive the intense pain from having my teeth removed. The dentist decimated 3 nerves in the surgery. I came very close to taking my life this past weekend. I am on the verge of losing my job and I make barely enough money to pay for a room stay at a studio motel. I am hungry. So absolutely gut wrenching hungry. I am alone. I am not allowed to see my kids. All I do is cry all day every day. I hate my life. I really dont have the stength to keep going. This is my way of saying I am going to lose to this battle soon. And I am kind of happy with it. No more tears. No more hunger. No more being alone.
Good morning Daniel. Man.. I really hate that you are so down and in pain. I've been at that low point in life myself and it sucks. Fortunately, people care for you and do not want to see you end it all, I can promise you that. Sending positive vibes and hugs your way.
Daniel,
I’m so sorry you’re so down. Being that low is awful. I know I’ve been there too and I’m sure many of us here have. You aren’t alone. If you ever need someone to talk to reach out. We can talk through it. Keep going for your kids. There is always hope.
I have been where you are. 10 year marriage and all. I did not know how I would survive. Without my husband And children my life seemed to have no purpose. Though it was a struggle I ultimately got sober, addressed my mental health issues and found Jesus. Today I am happy, free and healthy. I know it doesn’t feel like it but you can make it through this. Suicide is permanent. This is only temporary. It DOES get better. Here for you!
Hi Daniel, you are not too broken. We are damaged but not destroyed and there is so much that a higher power greater than ourselves wants to do with our damage. I read everything you wrote a few times. I hear your pain and I know it’s hellish. I know there are no words to fix or take the suffering and pain that you are experiencing completely away. These things I know to be true-There is a solution. There is a path out of the darkness carved specifically and especially for you. Don’t do it. Keep fighting, I believe in you. Don’t give up just keep coming back. There is hope for you in those rooms. Everything can change for the better if we are willing to do what is right and take the first step. Pray for willingness. Our higher power collects all of our tears and hears our prayers and pain- though there is suffering there is so much to be revealed when we stop drinking and work the program. I just ask that you give it another try and don’t give up before the miracle happens. Love to you. May the good Lord bless you and keep you and provide everything you need and more, especially nutrition and a spiritual awakening. Peace be with you.
Daniel I have been where you are. Its so very hard. I want you to know if you want reach out to me. I added Greek philosophy to my recovery and it has helped me in ways a.a couldn't. And it helps me strengthen my program.
you will get thru this
go to a meeting find one
Good Morning Daniel, I would like to make a suggestion. Go to rehab. This is not the end, there is hope you just can't see it right now. You can have a good life a healthy life. Recovery is possible.
You are not alone Daniel
That's good advice and exactly what I did when I reached that point. I needed to be in the care of other people, because I did not feel safe being with myself. I didn't have much of a plan, other than buying a plane ticket to Florida, but I am sure glad I did. It probably saved my life.
You are not alone. I have been there as well. I thankfully survived my attempt 49 days ago due to EMS being called in time. It was the lowest, lonliest, most terrifying time in my 51 years of life. Now that I am on the other side of that, I am eternally grateful to be alive and even on my worst days......there is always hope. Please reach out to any of us, we want to help!
Hey I'm sorry your feeling this way and I feel so bad for you you just have to push through the pain and everything will be better soon enough 