I accidently deleted my account yesterday after making a post

Struggling Help
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I accidently deleted my account yesterday after making a post about struggling with self sabotage in a healthy relationship I’ve been in for almost 9 months. I made my profile when I first got sober about 18 months ago. I was trying to remove the ‘dating’ side of my profile and I guess I ended up deleting the whole thing. 🥲

Anywho… the struggle still stands. To keep is brief, I often find myself looking for things to be wrong by making up scenerios in my head - taking out my insecurities and past traumas out on him. We dont communicate the best and when we try I feel like my feelings are invalid and as though he may be losing patience with me at this point which I can understand. I’m not yet healed and my unhealthy patterns/way of thinking seems to be taking its tole on him and I. He is not an addict but I do beleive he’s been as understanding and as patient as anyone possibly could be in this situation.

IAll in all, I’ve come to the conclusion that I am in desperate need of some sort of sober & social outlet; like minded individuals I can reach out to who undertand where I’m coming from and I hope to be able to be that space of support in return - some friends, I guess we could call it. :sweat_smile:

I’ve always kinda been a loner outside of my years spent in active addiction so I’m not really sure where to start. Figured this might be a step in the right direction.

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#2

Good to have you back and use this outlet all you can

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#3

My goal this time around is to build a sober life, rather than try and hang on and survive in society’s craziness. If you’re not opposed to AA, I highly recommend it. Admittedly, I had a hard time bonding when I was younger. Now that I’ve matured (lol), it’s a lot easier. That’s my suggestion to meet others. Perhaps others have some other ideas.

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#4

Exact same thing happened to me. I just got back on here a few weeks ago. I

#5

Welcome back! Yeah you’re in the right place. Self sabotage is common here😅. But so is recovery, growth, and love. I just try to remember that my ego is not my amigo! My addict mind/ego will ruin every bit of peace and happiness, if I let it. Booze & drugs fuel my addiction mind/ego.
Understand?
I’m here if you want to talk

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#6

It’s definitely a step in the right direction. Try not to let your insecurities dominate your relationship. It can get tiring quickly. The past is the past. Focus on the future.

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#7

Been here for sure. I think u will find more people here relate to this than you realize- I think you’re in the right place

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#8

Thanks for your honest share. Growth

#9

I’m only on day 18, and looking for people to talk to as well. I’d be happy to help.