I always want a drink. I think about it a

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#1

I always want a drink. I think about it a lot how i can sneak it. How ill drink in moderation . Where i can drink. Why i deserve it. Then im fighting these thoughts. HALT and such . All while trying to function in life and not bite someones head off or shove all my frustration down ignoring it all until im so overwhelmed i explode . Some days are so hard not because of what the day brings. But because of my d@mn thoughts

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#2

Hey Emily, I know it sounds a bit cliche, but don't let those thoughts live in your head rent free! Learn to start turning the tape off as soon as it begins to play!.. Soon your mind will start to do it on its own, and before you know it your shortcomings will become more spread out, and infrequent.. We began OUR addictions methodically, and methodically we'll leave OUR addictions behind.. You're doing great, and right on track.

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#3

Me too. Hoping the longer I stay sober, the thoughts will decrease.

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#4

Stop bitching and do something about it… you need to stop thinking about drinking alcohol be of service go help another alcoholic. Go to meetings. Call your sponsor. Call friends in the program volunteer at Central Office. Do something in recovery and keep doing it and keep doing it. The obsession will go away.

#5

Go clean the bathroom. Read a book. Call a sponsor or non boozing friend- just redirect yourself to a positive instead of the negative

#6

Hi Emily,

I remember feeling everything that you described. You're not alone. It was a siclical nightmare of a swirling vortex of h*ll... a neverending groundhog day! I agree wholeheartedly with Anthony. Redirect with positive affirmations, thoughts, & actions. I'm 12+ years sober & I want you to know that it will subside. It does get better. Toss those negative thoughts into a delete bin in your mind.:herb:

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#7

In the beginning of my recovery I used to get the intrusive thoughts of.....

I could use and nobody would ever know..
and not only when things we bad. But when things were going great.

I swear those pass. But your recovery stays
... and those thoughts happen less and less

#8

I remember those days and still have them sometimes. I used to have to step back, close my eyes and breathe, and say the serenity prayer over and over again. Take it a minute at a time if you have to.

#9

That’s a normal part of the process, ‘going through the emotions’. It takes times to get new to a new lifestyle. Sometimes it can feel like a culture shock but then our need to make kicks in and we fight to stay sober. Sending you a ton of strength!