I am 111 days sober but Kind of feeling some type of way right now…I have been feeling soooo secure in my sobriety and today I am feeling anxious, nervous, confused, concerned and so many other things. I think Thanksgiving was a bigger trigger than I thought it would be for me. I spent the day with my family and it was a really good day, but I don’t know for the first time in months that night I dreamt about trying to get high. In my dream I was back with my friends from that life and homeless and trying to find some boi. I don’t know if it was Thanksgiving or the fact that the day after was my Dad that passed aways birthday, and I still have a very very hard time with dealing with losing him….or a combo of the two. But whatever brought it on, that dream has me shook a little and a little less confident and I guess just worried that I will start thinking about getting high again or dreaming about it all the time or something! Ugh!!! I have come so far, and everyone (myself included) is so proud of me…I don’t want to let myself or anyone else down again! Please everyone pray for me to be strong and stay on the right path with no temptations or relapses!
Sorry this post is so long, didn’t have anyone I could talk to about this and needed to just get it out!!
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It's totally normal don't let it shake u up I had dreams like even after like 6 or 7 months clean it doesn't mean anything unless u let it, it's scary I know but totally normal.