I am drunk right. I was sober for a year or so. I was in celebrate recover going through my second divorce, fighting for custody of my son. I have met a woman who is so loving and knows my past. That I don’t deserve her and I am at a point in my life where I realize drinking has ruined all my relationships, my career, education, everything I do. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. Jesus first! I just need support and I don’t wanna tell my girlfriend because 2 ruined marriages might scare you.
You need to tell your gf. Honesty and openness are key. I believe your current SO should know about previous relationships and sexual partners. That's their right. If this is a big deal to your SO and she finds out later you're asking for more problems.
Open honesty is the only way to heal. The past cannot be buried under your present, it is like building on a garbage dump. It may look good now but with a foundation that is rotting it is only a matter of time before it crumbles. You have to get the trash out of the way first.