I have a lot going on in my life that is physically hard, and my best efforts aren’t changing the circumstances quickly. But gratitude is keeping me alive, of that I am sure.
I am grateful for how, when I think about or write down my gratitude, it changes me within. It makes me feel happier in the moments and more confident about the changes that I know are lining up to improve my physical circumstances.
What you said about your best efforts aren't changing the circumstances quickly hit home for me. I've been seeing a lot of things about gratitude and at first I didn't think it would help much or maybe even seemed silly but seeing it help you and others on here, I'm gonna give it try.
In a book I was reading about how to improve my overall life experience, it said, “To whatever depth you have experienced pain, it is to that degree that you can experience joy.” So, if life feels real real bad, just keep in mind, your bounceback will be bigger and better than you’ve ever experienced before. But you have to want it, think about it, and believe in yourself as you’re working towards it, before it’s even come.
I believe in you Shane! The fact that you’re here says you want it and you’re thinking about it and you’re working towards it… Don’t let your thought habits, or anyone else’s - even your wife who you love and loves you - don’t let anything keep you from that incredible joy you’re workin towards.
Oh my gosh! Your super good at this, I've never heard of thought habits before. I'm intrigued by the meaning of it. I really appreciate the vote of confidence, it makes me feel good,thanks
I kinda have to be. I’ve been homeless and unemployed for a lot of days, and my efforts to get to working have been my biggest hurdle, because places aren’t just hiring like we’re made to think they would be if only people wanted to work. I wanna work soooooo much!!!
Obviously, I need some income. But mostly, being homeless and unemployed has made me feel invisible and entirely detached from the world around me. That is a very risky place to be, because I’ve been depressed most of my life and suicide has “made sense” far too many times.
Getting solid about being grateful makes it so the conversations in my head, with my own self, they feel better. It’s like becoming my own best friend, so that it doesn’t matter so much about what other people think. And it doesn’t wound me so badly when I feel like other people aren’t seeing the real me.
I see me and that’s the best place to start from!!!
What are you loving about your own self today Shane?
That's a tough spot to be in. I need to work on thinking more like you. I hope things get better for you.