I am lost. Im an orphan of 15 years. I have a good job and pay all my bills and have been for a couple years now. But im a poly substance abuser and im also bi polar 1. Im walking through my life alone and all i have in life is my job, my money, and my drugs. Iv been chaptered 5 times in the last 10 years. Suicide is huge for me. But also because i get so drugged up i dont care anymore. My mom died from an overdose 15 years ago when i was 16 and my entire family abandoned me. I make 30k a year n have nothing to show for it other than paying my bills cuz everything extra goes to drugs. I am a raging alcoholic
Try a meeting pal
Your right i should. I dont have anything holding me back but myself buddy
I feel like an orphan with the way my parents are so distant and not loving. Drinking helps me feel better about life for the time being. After drinking the intense feelings of depression overwhelms me and I get scared myself that if in a moment of intense pain I might hurt self. Thinking back I do feel overall better when I don't drink. I think that maintaining sobriety will help and the rest I'm trying to figure out myself too.
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Hold on bridget. You are not alone
You are not alone. Keep busy. Set some simple daily goals for yourself. Do something special for yourself every day! You deserve happiness
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Sorry bout that folks. I’m old school and get a little radical. Just don’t pick up and all will work out. Just a lot of living in the past going on is all. Future is all that matters. Good luck
My heart breaks for you who are/were orphans. You are loved. You're valuable. You deserve to be here. You deserve to be happy. I can't fill the void but I am glad you're here and shared a piece of you.
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