I am new to this app! Today is day 4 for me of no alcohol and doing well! Ive struggled with drinking for a VERY long time and this weekend I decided enough was enough. I usually do well for a week or 2 then go right back to it, then crash after a bender. I cannot do that again anymore! Thank you all for the support and motivation. Ive gotta stay strong!
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I'm rooting for you
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Stay strong!!!
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Congratulations on the 4 days! That’s a huge deal! I wish you nothing but luck on your sobriety journey!
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Use this app daily! Its great for motivation and backup.
One day at a time 
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Welcome to Loosid!
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Badass! Keep driving!
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Welcome Sarah!
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Congratulations. Chronic relapse happens, it doesn't have to, and no one gives you permission to. That might have stung and that was my intent. It's going to sting a little more, keep reading if you dare, or take the blue pill and go back to your way of living.
Self will doesn't work, at least for me. I made several external and internal promises that I would stop, I woukd have only one, ok just two, and the rationing would go on and on. The truth is, I didn't want to stop, I wasn't honest with myself.
I went to an Out Pstient Rehab, outside of Chicago. Iearned about alcoholism, peed in a cup and took some naltrexone. My success rate was bleak. I was told to go to AA meetings. The rehab would get in a big room, circle up and we would have to tell out inpatient date and the meetings we went to. To not be embarrassed I went to meetings.
That is where the real inside out work began. I had a 1st Step meeting where I heard parts of my story in others. I heard a solution. I was given hope. Being an introvert as soon as the meeting was over I didn't stick around ND ran for the door. An Der timer ran after me and sId "Keep Coming Back."
I was told in rehab shortly after thst my old way of living wasn't working. The therapist was right. I was asked in the rehab to try something new, what could it hurt? I could always go back to my old way of life it is always waiting for me.
So I went back to meetings and learned to do some simple, not necessarily easy, things for a new design of living.
Go to Meetings
Get a Book
Ask for Hp
Get a Book
Work the Steps
Work with Othwrs
Pray
Meditate
And a few simple things that work, if I work them. I do these and a few other things daily to maintain sobriety. Staying sober yesterday doesn't guarantee I will stay sober today..
My hope is that you are willing to take the red pill and try something new. That you've had enough pain and suffering to take a courageous step and put one foot in front of the other. Perhaps you aren't ready and prefer the insanity of doing the same thing and getting the same result. It is an inside out job, being honest with myself.
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