I am powerless to a lot of things.. a control freak... Perfectionist..observer... I always need to know why things are the way they are..or why that's the way that is..why that person turned out to be fake why why why?...they say don't take anything personal EVER.. in life..sometimes I forget that part...but god I annoy myself with the questions...honest to God who gives a f*ck why? It just is. So WHY am I still wanting to end this with a stupid "?"
It's like filling a void in some way? Or your ego NEEDS some kind of stimulation all the time..every second so you don't realize your actually able to stop incessantly thinking for a second if you tried.. idk. Im on day 5. I feel relaxed and just ate breakfast for dinner...going to sleep 
Be here now in the present..that's all there is... and Accept what is. Eckhart Tolle is one of my favorite teachers/author 
Simple rule, easy does it and keep everything simple. Give that brain a rest and know yourself.
Thanks for sharing Alexandria! You pretty much nailed what goes on in my crazy head if I don’t take care of myself. The over thinking and paralysis by analysis completely takes control. Once this happens, I am powerless. The solution for so many years (forever) has been alcohol/drugs/compulsive behaviors. It was the only way I could shut up or off the craziness. We all know how this story ends. The F’n solution stops working. The F’n solution is destroying our lives. Recovery is about breaking the cycle of medicating, finding tools to quiet the demons, and then getting down to the root of these demons so that we can slowly rewire our thoughts on a daily basis. May we all find strength to face and conquer our demons. We are stronger together. You are not alone. 
Thank you for writing this post! Cheering you on