I have been sober from methamphetamine for 74 days. I had court on Monday for a charge that I have been fighting back in November. I went and put myself in a rehab for a month to stop to use on my own I’ve been doing outpatient rehab on my own and I started working at a doctors office so I have been doing very well. Very proud of myself. I was told I needed to go back to rehab court ordered 6 to 9 months I’ve gained the relationship with my kids back. Now I have to let them go again for longer. It interferes with my job. I am so depressed. I don’t know how to see this. Should I take it as a blessing because I’m a relapse had any time or is it still punishment for the mistakes that I made my family tries to understand but they don’t understand an addict to them it’s you know maybe you needed maybe you needed but I’m asking for advice and how I should take this from another attic really somebody that maybe has been in my shoes and can understand what I’m feeling Thank you.
I’ve been there.
I suggest you stay away from thinking this is punishment. It’s not. These things are just the consequences of our actions.
If I’m loaded I make horrible decisions. Then I run away from consequences.
In sobriety I learn to live life on life’s terms and not run away. I have to face fear and take care of business.
Also, it is a blessing because it gives you the chance to take care of things and sobriety helps keep you from getting in trouble again.
Stay proud. Your strength will get you through. Treatment is never a punishment. The doctors office should understand and even if you end up having to leave it, you now have experience to help you get your next job! It’s all good!
I ended up in treatment for 8 months. It helped immeasurably with my relationship with my daughter and my family. Most importantly it helped establish a really strong foundation in AA and with my sobriety.
Work hard for your goals, your dreams, your kids, yourself, your sobriety!