I am seeking advice

I have been sober from methamphetamine for 74 days. I had court on Monday for a charge that I have been fighting back in November. I went and put myself in a rehab for a month to stop to use on my own I’ve been doing outpatient rehab on my own and I started working at a doctors office so I have been doing very well. Very proud of myself. I was told I needed to go back to rehab court ordered 6 to 9 months I’ve gained the relationship with my kids back. Now I have to let them go again for longer. It interferes with my job. I am so depressed. I don’t know how to see this. Should I take it as a blessing because I’m a relapse had any time or is it still punishment for the mistakes that I made my family tries to understand but they don’t understand an addict to them it’s you know maybe you needed maybe you needed but I’m asking for advice and how I should take this from another attic really somebody that maybe has been in my shoes and can understand what I’m feeling Thank you.

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I’ve been there.
I suggest you stay away from thinking this is punishment. It’s not. These things are just the consequences of our actions.
If I’m loaded I make horrible decisions. Then I run away from consequences.

In sobriety I learn to live life on life’s terms and not run away. I have to face fear and take care of business.

Also, it is a blessing because it gives you the chance to take care of things and sobriety helps keep you from getting in trouble again.

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Stay proud. Your strength will get you through. Treatment is never a punishment. The doctors office should understand and even if you end up having to leave it, you now have experience to help you get your next job! It’s all good!
I ended up in treatment for 8 months. It helped immeasurably with my relationship with my daughter and my family. Most importantly it helped establish a really strong foundation in AA and with my sobriety.
Work hard for your goals, your dreams, your kids, yourself, your sobriety!

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