I have been working out and going out with friends. I have unfortunately fallen in love with someone that loves to drop my heart. Well unintentionally i believe. We trigger each other but when we are good, we are good. We just need to comunicate more. Sometimes when we fight, i really hate him alot because i dont like his tone and i cant calm him down. So i freeze and runaway. I am walking on eggshells just to taste those slivers of happiness with him. He makes me laugh alot. I love how he kisses me and hugs me. I love how we are literal children together. I unfortunately have fallen in love. This is going to hurt so bad i know it! But i am doing it anyways! I am starting to like being sober. I am less intense with my emotions but still tinsy intense. Like for example, if i was drunk i would have called him and went over to his house if he didnt answer the phone but now i just let him block me and i am moving on with my life. Yes! I texted him and called him, but that was one time each so its improvement, i suppose. We are talking now and i swear i am not going to runaway again because i cant bear not being without him.
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@edith204072 It all sounds good. Just remember he can be all "smoke and mirrors". If you have less than 1 year of sobriety I'd suggest you get out of it now and continue working on yourself especially if he triggers you. Just remember you're only an arms length away from a relapse.
If you're "walking on eggshells" get out of it your sobriety comes first.