I am struggling, badly. I went to rehab in January and completed it. I was just over 30 days clean then things happened..I thought I would be able to cope better when stupid stuff would arise but I was wrong..I feel worse and worse every day and I don’t want to feel sick anymore.
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Things will always happen… life on life’s terms. Are you in a program? Have a sponsor you can reach out to? Beating yourself up isn’t doing you any favors. That is the demon winning. It may take another rehab stint. It could be an IOP… but if nothing changes nothing’s going to change. I wish you luck. We all deserve peace.
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First off…welcome to Loosid. Hope you find the support and info you are looking for. Congrats on going to treatment and completing it. Think of recovery as a journey. Going to treatment and be exposed to recovery and learning about addiction is a big first step. You are no longer walking around unaware of why you can’t control your drinking/drugging like most others. You should’ve learned about building a support system and getting involved in a daily recovery program. Maybe you didn’t take this part serious enough?? If so, now you are beginning to understand why it’s so important. A few of us learn this lesson quickly, however, most of us (me included) don’t. Most of get beaten down pretty bad before we are willing to really take action. Don’t beat yourself up for messing up. You are not a bad person, but you do have a serious health problem that you need to take care of. I’ll leave it at this for now and let others share their comments. Welcome to the fam!!
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Beating ourselves up over it I found out doesn't do a bit of good. Try to put it behind you and focus on the present. You definitely can do this!
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Stay true and honest to yourself. Stay the course and be blessed
Meetings. I go to 4 to 5 Zoom Meetings a day when I need to. It gets my thinking straight n it helps being around others who share what helps them. Not to mention there's a lot of love to be found in this program. We will love you until you can love yourself
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Don’t be too hard on yourself, being able to forgive yourself is a big step in recovery. Dwelling on the mistakes will only make things harder, things happen. Keep moving forward and remember that you can overcome this, there is hope
Join meetings. They really do help! Work the steps. Never stop working them and reaching out to talk to others in recovery. The whole higher power thing and accepting life on life’s terms or God’s terms or however you view your higher power makes life so much less of a struggle. Of course we have bad days no matter what. Pamper yourself; hot shower, a movie you’ve been wanting to watch, call a friend! You got this 
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I agree with others. Don’t beat yourself up. When something happens, it is a slip up but that doesn’t mean you can’t turn right back around and get back on the sobriety wagon. Addiction is the devil working his way in. This is tough stuff! It took me a couple stints in rehab to get my head out of my a$$! But then get yourself to as many meetings as you need to in order to maintain your sobriety. I know you can do this!
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What do we do when we fall down? We pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off and keep going. You got this. We’ve only lost when we quit trying.
Do you have a support group? Sponsor? Meetings?