I am struggling starting steps for recovery AA or MA I have the books but for some reason I can’t seem to get 1st step done I feel that I can get through with out steps not sure what to do
I'd say you're halfway there. Something told you you've got a problem. Life's unmanageability due to alcohol? Baby steps are ok. Maybe go to some meetings and find someone to help you out. They're called sponsors. 
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For me it was this massive ah hah moment when I finally realized that I won’t be able to control and enjoy my drinking or getting high. That it always ends up with my entire life revolving around being loaded or drunk while everything truly worthwhile crumbles around me. Once I realized that there would ultimately be no enjoyment from it in the grand scheme of things I was finally able to start letting it go. And THAT was how I got to the 2nd step - if I can’t get high then what? It’s been 4 years sober and life is so dam good!
So I just encourage you to let it go and look forward to something much more rewarding. Get into the fellowship, work those steps with a sponsor, get a home group, and help others get sober by one drunk helping another.
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You mentioned the books but not a sponsor. You probably can’t work the steps without a sponsor.
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Sorry should have been clearer I do have a sponsor I go to meeting basically I can’t seem to get the work started. Sponsor is good I’ve spoken with him about it he’s very supportive I just keep putting it off till next week and so on , thanks for the responses
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This may sound like a crazy idea but have you written a breakup letter to your substance? The steps are a simple path to get healthy again but that is hard to start before you’ve acknowledge that the relationship is over and your ready to move forward to a healthier happy life. Food for thought
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No I haven’t never heard of that before
Maybe give it a try, speak to your substance as if it was a person you had a relationship with that you need to leave for your health and safety. The good times, the bad, note the abuse and pain your substance caused you, note where you went wrong and tell your substance that you have to let it go because your going on a journey that involves healing,self love and happiness and that journey no longer involves your substance and then it’s time to heal and find that self love…. That’s where the steps came in for me. It gave me the confidence to start and finish the steps. I’ve worked two sets in my recovery, the first set saved my life and the second set changed my life to who I am today. My life is far beyond my wildest dreams
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Hi Ernest.
Step 1 is the hardest step by far. It’s also the only one that mentions drugs/alcohol.
When we struggle in the future it’s usually a Step 1 problem.
from my experience the best thing that I did was fully trust in the process of recovery and take suggestions from someone who is like us. We’re all sick people. Some just have some experience on how to deal with situations that arise.
I would suggest finding a sponsor or a step guide. To help explain certain things that come up in the Big Book.
I believe in you my friend. 
Just saw that you do have one. So the big leap here is to commit that day for a couple hours and read with them.
The program is the most simple difficult thing we do. And it’s not for us who want it or need it, it’s for us who do it. And I know you can do it. You have the willingness. Utilize that willingness while it’s active.
Checkout the book Alan Carr's quit drinking without willpower brother, it changed my life.
I found videos on YouTube that involved each step and it often gave me clarity on each step in general. I think too, we put too much pressure on ourselves about failing or not completing the steps. The truth is, no one has done the steps and come out for the worse. Everything I was so scared of turned out to be in my head. I would just do them at any cost, you will thank me after.
Find your bottom.
When, like me, you lose everything, you basically have two choices left. To give up on life or to start the work you should have started years ago. You don't have to wait until that point. It's not advised that you do. Many people choose to give up on life at that point. I had all but made that choice myself. Don't get to that point, brother. Put in the work TODAY. Not tomorrow, today. Eventually, your chances run out. That's a promise. Maybe you haven't gone to enough meetings to realize that.