I am struggling with grief, like losing my mom was

Struggling Help
#1

I am struggling with grief, like losing my mom was so hard and I thought nothing could top that but then I lost my brother and I have been so so broken every since. I am so sad and full of grief I want to be with him and our mom, I never felt such deep sadness as I do about Ricky. My body has physical reaction to missing him.
I feel lonely and so sad and I wish that I could just ease the weight of my emotions and I don't have anything that works and I just get scared I will break and drink after 7 f*cking years I can't believe I even feel this way. I just want something to make the feelings leave me alone.

I am "saying" it out loud so that it does not control me

My little brother and first kid and bestie and just my heart.

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#2

Well i know you writing it down, takes the power outta things. My condolences :bouquet: and i will be praying for you​:pray::pray::pray:

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#3

I can totally relate to what you're going through. My condolences, prayers and heart go out to you. Your post resonates where I'm currently at. With the recent passing of three of my closest friends it's hard.

However, NO MATTER WHAT I will NOT take a sip of that first drink.

Continue the good fight my friend. I believe in you. Keep posting (weighting) about it

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#4

@valencia429884 How are you holding up over this.
Keep up posted on your journey.

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#5

Thank you so much for asking me. I am doing ok, I refuse to allow that spirit of booze back into my life.

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#6

I understand your loss and have been through the losses, keep their memory alive by doing the things you liked about your and son. Take the traditions they have instilled in you and carry them on. I honestly believe that will help you!

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#8

So sorry for yiur loss booze abd drugs with only kske you more depressed. One day atca time)

#9

I am so sorry for your loss. Msg me if you need to talk.

#10

Hi there,
I definitely know how u feel. I suddenly lost my middle brother 1/23/26. Both parents gone. F.amily dwindling down.
Keep resisting those urges. 7 seven without alcohol is a serious accomplishment. 8 years on June 23 for me I felt like you. Hang in there. Kerp God 1st in ur life.

#11

I'm proud of you my friend. Welcome to the NO MATTER WHAT CLUB.