Has anyone ever lost their child (CPS) because of substance use and IPV?
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No, but I am always willing to be a listening ear and friend if you want to message me! Sending you any kind of peace I have 
I lost my kids because I’m autistic, mental health issues and also because I’m poor.
Sorry to hear that, do you get to see them
I felt this so deeply…
I lost my 3 kids back in 2019 to CPS after being sober for 12years and my first relapse and honestly that’s when I lost myself too. Being a mom was all I ever knew, and when they were gone, I didn’t know who I was anymore.
That pain pushed me head first into my meth addiction, and for the last 7 years I’ve just been trying to survive it. Every night I went to bed praying I wouldn’t wake up… and every morning I woke up wishing it was all just a nightmare I could escape from.
The best way I can describe it is feeling like I was drowning in a room full of people—screaming for help, but no one could hear me.
I truly never thought I would make it out of that place.
But when I had my son in September 2025, and they placed him in my arms… something changed in me. It felt like God gave me a reason to want to live again.
I’m still fighting, but for the first time in a long time… I actually want to be here.
And if anyone reading this feels anything like I did—lost, broken, or like there’s no way out—I promise you, there is. Even when it feels impossible. Even when you don’t believe it yet.
You’re not too far gone. You’re not beyond saving. And your story isn’t over yet.
Keep fighting… because one day something will shift, and you’ll be so glad you didn’t give up. 