Plain and simple, I could not quit drinking. I lost relationships, jobs, friendships, and even my kids. I lost things I loved and couldn’t live without. But it didn’t matter.
My willpower was not enough. I hated myself. The thoughts in my head treated me worse than anyone else, ever. But I always went back.
So, if you are reading this and you are frustrated with yourself because you can’t quit on your own, I advise you to find a program of recovery. Not just the Loosid community. We are sober support but that wasn’t enough for me. Just like my will was not enough for me.
Nobody goes to their first meeting because their life is going great. We go because we are fücked. We decide that enough is enough and we will try the thing we have been resisting for so long. We ask for help.
If you can’t quit on your own willpower, maybe you are willing to try it another way. Like I finally was.
