I couldn't deal with the cycle of depression and anxiety

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#1

I couldn't deal with the cycle of depression and anxiety when I didn't and even when I did have alcohol in my system.

My anxiety was so bad that I genuinely thought I was going crazy. I was scared to be left alone with my kids because what if I black out and there's no one there to provide and protect them. So then my solution was to just take a couple shots to take the edge off of the anxiety. Not taking into account the amount of alcohol I had put into my body throughout the day. So then I would blackout. When i would wake up the next morning I would be so filled with depression and anxiety from what I had done and how horrible it could have been that I would take more shots to make the anxiety go away.

It was a vicious cycle that was leading to the destruction of my family and taking me to a very dark place that could have ended more than just my relationship.

Just remember you are not alone in this and there are others out there that have felt and fought this demon just like you. I will fight beside you. No one deserves to feel what I felt. #reachout

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#2

Oh I know that cycle all too well. Gonna break it! Glad you did! Happy journey to you!

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#4

I’m sober because although I’ve had suicidal thoughts in the past, 33 days ago was the closest I’ve come to ending my life. I was alone. Everybody was so worried about my husband I was too but then nobody worried about me. The only thing that stopped me was picturing my kids finding me. If I could have been guaranteed they wouldn’t find me, I wouldn’t be here. That’s scary. Now I know I’m not alone, and neither are you. Even on our worst days, we got this. I am proud of you for breaking the cycle and I’m happy you’re here.

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#5

Thank you for sharing some of your story with us Adam! I understand the effects of alcohol and its habit can be devastating to one's lifestyle but the fact that you could analyze your situation and habits and find a solution to them altogether shows how resilient and willing to change you are. Thank you again for being supportive and inspiring us community to live a sober life!

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#6

First and foremost, I am so happy you are here. I don't even know you but I can still tell you this world would never be the same without you in it. We were not put on this world just to give in to a disease that wants to destroy us and everyone associated with us. We have a purpose. We have a reason. They say the devil only attacks those who are or attempting to do something right. We battle demons everyday most people couldn't even think about facing.

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#8

You are not alone in this battle. You are part of an army that will walk beside you. Not in front of or behind you. You got this. I'm proud of you.

As the philosophical fish dory says just keep swimming H E L L doesn't go on forever and if you just keep swimming you'll swim right out.

Hope this helps

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#9

Thank you. Yeah there’s actually a country song about that too by Rodney Atkins and I just seen him in concert and cried my eyes out​:rofl: it really means a lot for you to respond with such warmth, it helps to hear these things :slight_smile: It really does. Thank you.

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#10

Absolutely my pleasure... When I first started my journey almost 6 years ago, I felt so alone. I made a promise to myself I would not let any of my fellow soldiers walk this path alone

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